(Thanks Ryan [again] for the help!-my-muse-is-tormenting-me helpline availability. My sanity appreciates it. :p )     

          Am                   C          Am    C
[1st vs] I told you you weren't beautiful
          Am                   G                    Am     G
There were other prettier girls who wanted me.
        Am            D5                  C                    G   G4 
I told you this to prove my honesty was what you needed.
      Am              C                   Am          D4
God forgive me, I made you believe all those lies.
Am                   C          Am    C
I miss the taste of your soft brown hair
  Am                   G                    Am     G
And the heavenly way it felt with your fingers between mine.
   Am            D5                  C                    G   G4 
Your tiny warm body fitting perfectly into my side
  Am              C                   Am          D4
I miss the days when you were so mine.

                       C                                     Em
[pre-chorus] I never told you enough that I loved you then
      C                     Em
I tell myself I won't miss you
     C         Am    Em
But I can't forget

                     C                     Em
[chorus] I really miss your gray-blue eyes
       E2/B                  C
The day we had our last fight
      C                     Em
I'd give every year of my life
       E2/B                        D4
To take back every f-ing word I said.
      C                            Em
I took every bit of you for granted
     E2/B               C
I never deserved you a bit
     C                                   Em                          E2/B
Coz I know if I came back today and asked for a millionth chance
         D4                           D
You'd open up and let me back in.

[2nd vs]  I really miss your incredible empathy
That still drew you to put up with the hell that was me.
When I'd get angry when your beautiful standards stood in my way
And you'd only wince but stand your ground and whisper I'm sorry.....

I promised you we'd always be friends
I swore you off the day we were through
Watched you bear all my words without firing back
I still can't forget you.

[prechorus] I never told you enough that I loved you then
I tell myself I won't miss you
But I can't forget

[chorus] I really miss your broken eyes
The way I'd never hear you cry.
I told you I wanted to make you my wife
And I took it back and left you alone.
I took every bit of you for granted
I know I never deserved you in the least bit
Coz I know if I came back today and asked for a millionth chance
You'd open up and let me back in.

                  Am          C             Am               C
[3rd vs] I go on the defense whenever you say I'm hurting you
     Am       G            Am         G
Only say sorry after you say it first
     Am           D5           C             G
And I watched my influence tearing you down
     Am          C             Am
Till your conscience said enough
    C
Enough!

                       C
[bridge] The taste of your innocence
             G
Seared into my lying lips.
          C              G/B
You never deserved me.
        C                   G
All I wanted was you selfishly.
       Em             G     G4
Your body lying beside me
        Em                     C              Am    G
You deserved so much better than this.
        C               D5
And now you're haunted
        Em        D3
All I ever wanted.

                         C                     Em
[end-chorus]  I really miss your gorgeous eyes
              E2/B                         C
The way you'd laugh to see the sun rise.
      C                    Em
I miss everything you are
       E2                                   D4     D
The way you'd laugh and wrinkle your nose.
        C                        Em                            E2/B           C
Your silly heels and cold hands and your beautiful shortness.
       C         Em        E2/B
I miss my life without you.
     G/D     D4        Em
Without you.

(Hey Ryan, look! It's Jesus chords! My muse generously decided [just this once] to listen to your & my plea. Now does this make your life slightly less miserable? :p )     

          Am           G            F           G
[1st vs] When you're lost in this world of woe
      Am           G         F         G
Sinking; floating; trying to get home
     Am            G         F         G
You don't know what it's like to be alone
     Am     F      C      G
No one's heart's your home.

               C   G   Am   F
[1st chorus] I won't try.
C   G    Am  F
I won't try.
C   G   Am  F
I don't care!
C   G  Am  F
I won't try.

[2nd vs]  When you're a stranger on a broken road
Weary--deserted--little girl forlorn.
No one knows where to find your abode.
Ignore the ache beneath your breastbone.

[2nd chorus]   I won't cry
I won't cry
I don't care what they say!
I won't die.

[3rd vs]  It hurts too much to try and then fall
So I act like I don't even care at all.
Ignore the phone; don't take love's call.
Rebuild my broken walls.

[3rd chorus] I won't fly
I won't fly
I don't care how far I fall
I can't fly.

[4th vs] Drive me to the breaking point of sanity
Knowing that you tried to break me doesn't change a thing.
You left with laughter as my broken heart lay dying.
Well I'll show you what I'm made of as I fade within this ring.

[4th chorus]  I won't die
I won't die
Cut me as deep as you want!
I won't die.

[end chorus] I won't try
I can't fly
I've fallen and I'm laying here
But I won't die.

Because of you I am afraid to trust.
And I know all his words are true
But I've heard it all before
I still remember you.

Because of you I know forever doesn't last.
Because of you I know I Love You's don't mean anything.
Because of you I've learned of that cursed switch
Those days I sing just to hide the pain.

Because of you I am afraid of the dark.
Because of you I am afraid to fall.
Because of you I am afraid of everything
When I used to be afraid of nothing at all.

Because of you I cannot look at other men
Though he loves me and he's willing to fight.
Because of you I reject him when all I wanna do
Is open up and let him in.

Because of you I am afraid of the dark.
Because of you I am afraid to fall.
Because of you I am afraid of everything
When I used to be afraid of nothing at all.

All I can do
Is move on without you
Though I'll never ever forget.

Because of you I am afraid of the dark.
Because of you I am afraid to fall.
Because of you I am afraid of everything
When I used to be afraid of nothing at all.

It's all because of you.

(This is about trying to come to grips with the fact that you can totally irreversibly screw up your life....but maybe, just maybe, it wasn't screwed up beyond repair after all. There are a few of you who, like me, have made mistakes that have irrevocably changed your life. Here's to saying maybe those mistakes can work out for good. Maybe, even, for our joy.)

[1st vs] Thanks to you I've learned how to live through crushing heartbreak
And somehow come out on top.
And now I can truly empathize instead of shallow pity
Coz I know what it's like to fall.

[chorus] I still miss everything.
When I close my eyes, your blue ones I see.
But he's somehow softening my barricaded heart
I've unhitched my wagon from your falling star.
I am finding I can lean back and incredibly be safe in his hands.
I never thought I could....but I'm trusting again.

[2nd vs] Thanks to you I was driven to release my heartache in song
And by that help others give voice to their own.
I'm learning to let go and try to forget regret
And be thankful for this broken road.

What if I had never met you?
You changed me and broke me in so many ways.
Maybe I'd be happier, shallower, unbroken--
But I wouldn't be who I am today.

[chorus] I still miss everything.
If I close my eyes, your blue ones haunt me.
But he's somehow softening my barricaded heart
I've unhitched my wagon from your falling star.
I am finding I can lean back and incredibly be safe in his hands.
I never thought I could....but I'm trusting again.

[bridge] You never get over someone till you meet someone else.
If the love scarred, you can never fully get over them at all.
All you can do is try to find peace
Try to move on.

I cannot move on
I loved you too much
But almost against my will
He breaks through me with his touch.
And his gray eyes are more beautiful
Than the gaze of your cold blue.
I think I'm finally falling for someone else
Though I'll never get over you.

I'm not quite over you.

[chorus] I might always miss everything.
When I close my eyes, your blue ones I see.
But he's somehow softening my barricaded heart
And I've unhitched my wagon from your falling star.
I am finding I can lean back and be incredibly safe in his hands.
I never thought I could....but I'm trusting again.

I never thought it'd happen
But I'm falling in love again.

[1st vs] You were the drug that got me high
But you left me wrung out for the fire
Too dead to even have the strength to cry.
It took me this long to just even feel fine
Sometimes it was impossible to convince myself to want to survive...
And yes, at night weeping, there was a time
When with longing I thought of suicide.

[chorus] Don't give up on love
Even if it's not worth the cost.
Don't give up on love
If it breaks your heart.
Don't give up on love
When it cuts you so deep you can't even bleed.
Don't give up on love
When you're drowned in despair and you can't see
It'll give you a reason to believe
Don't give up on me.

[2nd vs] You blew into my life like dynamite
Left me drifting with no compass, with no guiding light.
You taste like ashes when you once tasted like wine.
What happened from when you touched me and set me afire?
Now you won't even face my eyes.
Sometimes I wonder if loving again is even worth the fight.
Is it wrong to believe that happiness could maybe one day be mine?

[chorus] Don't give up on love
Even if it's not worth the cost.
Don't give up on love
If it breaks your heart.
Don't give up on love
When it cuts you so deep you can't even bleed.
Don't give up on love
When you're drowned in despair and you can't see
It'll give you a reason to believe
Don't give up on me.
 
[bridge] You awakened up my heart
And left me alone without looking back.

[chorus] Don't give up on love
Even if it's not worth the cost.
Don't give up on love
If it breaks your heart.
Don't give up on love
When it cuts you so deep you can't even bleed.
Don't give up on love
When you're drowned in despair and you can't see
It'll give you a reason to believe
Don't give up on me.

You're perfect and you call me pet names
You give me massages without me even asking.
Cook dinner every night
You're everything that's right.

You turn off the game to talk to me
You hold me when I cry myself to sleep.
But I can't seem to make myself fall for you
And I don't know why.

You know exactly what to say
You treat me perfectly in every way.
But I can't make myself care
And I don't understand.
He is everything I thought I never wanted
He is everything I know I'll always need.
He tramps over everything I listed before
But he knows just what to do to keep me on my toes.
He's everything I need.

He goes clubbing and he drinks
Gives massages just to get something.
Sometimes it's him who makes me cry
Likes nothing better than to tease.

But I melt away at his touch
And I can't ever get enough.
When he whispers that I'm beautiful
Don't understand why.

You know exactly what to say
You treat me perfectly in every way.
But I can't make myself care
And I don't understand.
He is everything I thought I never wanted
He is everything I know I'll always need.
He tramps over everything I listed before
But he knows just what to do to keep breaking me down.
He's everything I need.

And you treat me so perfectly
My life is perfectly boring.
You're amazing, chivalrous, predictable
Life's no adventure now.

But I go on fire when he comes to me
Our screaming and crying and that first time he kissed me
Exciting, enchanting, he drives me insane.
And I know exactly why.

You know exactly what to say
You treat me perfectly in every way.
But I can't make myself care
And I don't understand.
He is everything I thought I never wanted
He is everything I know I'll always need.
He tramps over everything I listed before
But he knows just what to do to break me down.
He's everything I need.

The first kiss is the longest
And nothing after can change.
The first love hits the hardest
Nothing can take that away.
The first wound is the deepest
It never fully heals.
Cutting deeper than blades of steel
The first kiss never heals.

The first night lasts forever
With tears you breakingly fill your bed.
The first dark is the longest
Drown out the voices in your head.
The firsts hit the hardest
When you finally let your heart go.
When you fall, you stay there.
The first cut never heals.

The first kiss is the longest
And nothing after can change.
The first love hits the hardest
Nothing can take that away.
The first wound is the deepest
It never fully heals.
Cutting deeper than blades of steel
The first kiss never heals.

The last kiss haunts forever
When he left you alone.
The last night together
He cut you and left you open.
The last words that he spoke
Branded into your heart.
When your last love is your first love
The last love never heals.

(I should stop stalking random people on FB, but...thanks to Dustin for his "If I had my way" quote.)

If I had my way
I'd make you say
I love you.
If I had my way
I'd make you know
You miss me.
If life were fair
It would be you bleeding, not me.
If life would care
You'd be grieving and I'd be free.
If love were real
We'd be together and you'd be happy.
If love could last
You wouldn't be in my past.
If I had my way
You wouldn't have moved on.
If I had my way
You'd be missing me today.

(So this is the edited shorter version of this song to make it a better and shorter song. Shorter version? Really? My muse fails.)

People think you are happy
They obviously haven't seen your eyes.
Depths far too intricate to be built without grief
Your beautiful smile a heartbreaking lie.

And through your tears you reach out to the world
Am I the only one who can see?
You heal others' broken wings while falling so fast
Mirror reveals the jagged fragments of your dreams.

[pre-chorus] Well he stole all your innocence.
And he's broken off your wings.
Only the beauty left so broken in your eyes
Soul fiercely muting the hope your heart still sings.

[chorus] You are such a romantic
I don't understand it.
As many times as you've been so badly hurt
You'd think you'd recoil from even the risk of more scars.
You say you can't trust people any more of the time
But you trust every person who comes into your life.
I can't get your evocative heartbreak off my mind
It seems every time you fall
You only learn to fly.

You'll push a friend to heaven if sends you to hell
Shed your blood to save us from your own fate.
You're convinced you've fallen farther than anyone else
You try to save the world...though your tiny shoulders can't bear its weight.

You're a broken-hearted broken wing lover
Your vivacious smile brightens my every day.
You singlehandedly take on the demons surrounding
You almost make love from all our hate.

[pre-chorus] Well he stole all your innocence.
And he's broken off your wings.
Only the beauty left so broken in your eyes
Bleeding soul fiercely muting the hope your heart still sings.

[chorus] You are such a romantic
I don't understand it.
As many times as you've been so badly hurt
You'd think you'd recoil from all of your scars.
You say you can't trust people any more of the time
But you trust every person who comes into your life.
I can't get your evocative beauty off my mind
It seems every time you fall
You merely learn to fly.

Broken wing lover.

You're a broken wing lover and you've fallen too far
But I love you exactly who you are.
If you'd never fallen, you'd never have seen me down here.
I'm drawn to the beautiful way you carry your scars.

Despite it all you still believe in love.
Your passion is beginning to wear away at my lonely heart.
My jaded cynicism your fresh beauty and life is slowly tearing away.
I don't get it--I know that for hope, I've gone too far.

But I feel those butterflies I used to completely mock
I'm not glad you're broken--but if you had to fall, thank God you fell this far.
Ripping away my scabbed defenses for an old pain so deliciously new.
Never thought I'd say this again, but---
I think I'm falling in love with you.

[pre-chorus] Well he stole all your innocence.
And he's broken off your wings.
Only the beauty left so broken in your eyes
Bleeding soul fiercely muting the hope your heart still sings.

[chorus] You're making me a romantic
I don't understand it.
As many times as you've been so badly hurt
You'd think you'd recoil from the fragile dreams of romance.
After being broken myself, I never thought I could trust a girl again in my life
But there's something about you....and you make me fall every time I look in your eyes.
I cannot get you off my mind
It seems every time you fall
You learn to brilliantly fly.

Broken wing lover.

Promise me
That when the years stretch on you will stay.
That my touch will always drive you as wild as it does now.
Your eyes will remain so deep, so clear
Promise me you'll never leave me like he did.
Promise me.

You are eternally in love with me.
Can't even see other women for the blinding beauty of this love.
And nothing--nothing--would make you happier--
Than having me forever at your side.
Promise me.
Someday.

If I can manage to wring myself away from my fears
And close my eyes against the pain and jump into the stars
You'll be there to catch me before I shatter again against the rocks
You'll never leave me like he did.
He turned away laughing and let me fall.

Promise me.