[1st vs] Fallen angel you came from the sky
Blinded my heart when you landed in my life.
You're the kind of trouble that should send me flying
But I couldn't get far without getting lost in your eyes.

[pre-chorus] Are those the star lights crying?
I'll lead them back to you.
Your tears are drowning
Is this really so new?

[chorus] Little angel, you stole my heart at first sight
And those nights spinning dreams--did it mean nothing to you?
When we talked last night I couldn't feign indifference
I know I'm still not over you.
No one else can seem to fill your place
Can't believe we'd end up this way, girl
When you kissed like an angel.

[2nd vs] Broken angel, how do you survive?
All the hearts you carry with your beautiful lies.
But your eyes are bleeding--is it really not true?
Haunting night's silence as I dream about you....

[pre-chorus] Are those the falling stars crying?
I'll lead them back to you.
Your tears are drowning me
Is this really new for you?

[chorus] Little angel, you stole my heart at first sight
And those nights spinning dreams--did it mean nothing to you?
When we talked last night I couldn't feign indifference
I know I'm still not over you.
No one else can seem to fill your place
Can't believe we'd end up this way, girl
With your kiss like an angel.

[pre-chorus] Are those the angels calling?
I'll point them back to you.
Your tears drowned out on this page
Bleeding me black and blue.

[bridge] Those last nights you were crying and I didn't know
And now sleeping sucks when I do it alone.
Falling from heaven and I didn't see why
I can't even lie
We never really had any closure
I can't move on without you
Baby I realize
Was it all just a lie?

[chorus] Little angel, you stole my heart at first sight
All those nights we lay awake just dreaming...it didn't mean a thing.
I still miss everything about you.
I can never get back what you stole--every part of me.
No other girl can seem to fill your place.
Still

And those nights spinning dreams--did it mean nothing to you?
When we talked last night I couldn't feign indifference
I know I'm still not over you.
No one else can seem to fill your place
Can't believe we'd end up this way, girl
With your kiss like an angel.

(Overheard two guys talking once about how girls complain about being cold, but these guys, they don't mind it, coz they use that as a "practical" excuse to get closer to said girls on the pretense of warming them. Hey, it's the chivalrous thing to do, right? I've always complained about cold hands...but who knows? Maybe I'd better stop. :p In any case, this poem was inspired by their conversation.)

I can hear your breath coming quickly beside me.
When I turn to you, you lay your hands against me
The delicious shock of your skin against my own pulses the blood through my veins.
And you wince and apologize for the coldness of your touch
As if you should be worried about that at all.
As if you can apologize for being so dang beautiful that it aches sometimes just to look at you
A physical pain deep inside.
There is no cure.
You tilt your head up laughing to me with the teardrops visible on your skin
It's all I can do not to grasp you and kiss them away so hard it hurts
I wanna hold you so close--squeeze you so tight--that you spill over into me
And we become the same being. One love.
Maybe then I'll find peace.
Sometimes I fear I'll hurt you every time we embrace.
You're so beautiful, so perfect, so little. I'm afraid something'll break.
Kissing you till 4 in the morning.
Pillow fights and unconcealed dreams.
But whenever I take your hand, you apologize for your shivers.
Darling, can't you see?
That gives me the perfect excuse to mutter something practical about warmth and slip you into my arms.
I know you still blush and apologize, but
I wouldn't change a thing.

(Not autobiographical. Just fyi. :p )

Blowing up her stereo
Going to that dance
Stiletto heels clicking till they fall into place
Little black dress gonna turn all them heads.
Sparkles on her skin, sparkles on her eyes
Dangerous flirty curls sending her off the wire tonight.
Dancing till we die
Our bodies going off the floor tonight
DJ don't stop till we drop
DJ keep going till we fall on top
DJ turn it up
Till it's pulsing through my veins
Bleeding on the page
Dance.

I'm here to dance
Getting high, getting low, gonna get dizzy
Get me down here
Just take this down
We're gonna keep it up all night
Tear up this club till they kick us out.
Dancing till we die
Our bodies going off the floor tonight
DJ don't stop till we drop
DJ keep going till we fall on top
DJ turn it up
Till it's pulsing through my veins
Bleeding on the page
Dance.

We're gonna be young together
So let's tear up the dance floor
As if tonight's the best night of your life
Keep your hands on me
As we dance our way
Through life.

(I know I'm 20, but I still have wish-lists
I make them out every Christmas.
So Santa, here are some of my dreams
Some real, some optional, some just poetry.
And although I don't necessarily have anyone in mind,
I don't wanna have a self-addressed Valentine.
Being single gets harder as I get older
When you're alone, it seems life is so much colder.
So let's see what you can do in the next year, two, or three!
Sincerely yours, Chelsea.)

A box of chocolates with ribbons on top.
Ambrosia fruit salad with tons of dates and coconuts.
Stockings stuffed full with the magical unknown
The magic of a Christmas covered in gorgeous white snow.

An iTouch, an iPod, or a new phone
Robin McKinley books by the score.
Pointless presents that serve as amazing inside jokes
And don't forget getting beautifully caught under the mistletoe.

Christmas wishes for everything I can't get
But this isn't what I really want.

All I want for Christmas, Santa Claus
Is someone to love me just because.
To love my little quirks and flaws
(It'd be a plus if he was tall.)
All I want for Christmas, dear
Is not to be alone all year.
Someone to have and to hold
Someone with whom I can grow old.
Someone who will never regret saying "I do."

All I want for Christmas is you.

New clothes or shoes are always a plus.
And red heels are almost a must!!
I love getting jewelry from my friends
And little cute girly odds and ends.

Christmas cards with meaningful hand-written notes
And an Eskimo fur-lined poofy fat coat.
Winter boots when I choose to be wise (not fashionable) and keep my feet warm
And tissues for those long days when I feel so alone.

Christmas wishes for everything I can't get
But this isn't what I really want.

All I want for Christmas, Santa Claus
Is someone to love me just because.
To love my little quirks and flaws
(It'd be a plus if he was tall.)
All I want for Christmas, dear
Is not to be alone all year.
Someone to have and to hold
Someone with whom I can grow old.
Someone who will never regret saying "I do."

All I want for Christmas is you.

Someone who will really mean it when he says "I love you."
All I want for Christmas is you.

You were every part of me
I used to take on the world
Woke up every morning and never looked back
Never slept alone.

Won't try to pretend it ain't real
Won't try to pretend that it's healed.
I let you in deeper than I ever let anyone else.
You're the only reason that I fear.

When I was in love I couldn't sleep, couldn't eat.
But you still haunt all of my dreams.

After you left--
I can breathe for the first time in weeks.
After you left--
I'm gathering up the pieces.
You left me a wreck
You left me a ghost of my former self
But I'm moving on
Making a new life
After you left.

I used to cry in your arms.
Now I never let anyone see the tears inside.
I was laughing when you checked in to see how I was doing
The only thing to do with the pain was hide.

I told you all my dreams
You've shattered every single one.
I hope you're happy with what you've accomplished
No, baby. You were right.
I don't believe in love.

I couldn't sleep, couldn't eat.
You still haunt all of my dreams.

After you left
I can breathe for the first time in weeks.
After you left
I'm gathering up the pieces.
You left me a wreck
You left me a ghost of my former self
But I'm moving on
Making a new life
After you left.

I used to be happy
I used to believe
I remember when I'd still think fondly of fairytales
I remember when I used to dream.

After you left
I can breathe for the first time in weeks.
After you left
I'm gathering up the pieces.
You left me a wreck
You left me a ghost of my former self
But I'm moving on
Making a new life
After you left.

(This is the product of something I've been thinking about for a while...that time really does dull most wounds. Heal, not all of them, not quite...but dull, tamp it down, force it to be endurable, yes. But you can't just tell that to someone who's bleeding, who's hurting--you can't say, "Oh, just give it time, you'll be okay." That completely belittles their pain. Mocks them, even. But....it's still true. So here's this song to try and show this truth while not trying to ignore the overwhelmingness of the pain you still have to go through to get to that place of somewhat-peace.)

The depths in your laughing eyes give away the pain
You're so alone in that chasm that comes from love lost.
You don't know why or where to go
Weary, wounded, too scared to trust.

You hate yourself for still caring for him
Who broke you and left you and didn't return.
There's no light in sight at the tunnel's end for you
You wonder if you'll ever be free from this hurt.

It just takes time
It'll be okay, little girl
Just give it time
Trust me, I've been there before.
And when you feel like you might be ready to fall
I'll be waiting on your backstep
There still are falling stars.

Trapped in the blackness that bleeds from a freshly broken heart
Lost, there's no ending, you can't see a way out
In the entire length of time you're trapped in this one glitch.
You don't know anymore who you are.

It just takes time
It'll be okay, little girl
Just give it time
Trust me, I've been there before.
And when you feel like you're ready to fall again
I'll be waiting at your back door
I've been waiting since it began.

The best thing about the night is that there has to be a dawn
Just trust me enough to let me hold you and dry your tears.
I know it's cliche, but time really does dull all wounds
Even if it can't fully heal.
When you cry out at night I wanna be there to fight away your fears.

It just takes time
It'll be okay, little girl
Just give it time
Trust me, I've been there before.
And when you feel like you can fall again
I'll be waiting at your back door
Don't let him ruin your faith in all men.

If you can't trust me coz he screwed up love for you
Then trust me to be the boy who'll mend your broken heart with my glue
If you can't trust your heart coz it led you to him
Then trust your eyes as you see me fight to protect you, to love you, to help you trust again.
I'm going to take you in.

You're going under, kiddo.
I'm gonna take you in.
Don't fight this losing battle. I won't give up.
I'm gonna help you love again.

(Flirting. Toying with someone else's emotions. Leading them on. Something most of us [homeschooled and/or conservative] girls have been told is wrong from the onset of the teen years. But what is leading someone on? Is it flirting if you plan to follow through on your actions? If you want to follow through on your actions? Can we help where the heart takes us if it's diametrically opposed to our mind? This poem is based on past experiences, both in my life and in a few good friends' lives. God help those whose minds and hearts contradict each other in this game of emotional roulette.)

Playing with love
It's not worth the risk.
I swore it off since his last kiss.
I'll never do it again.
But there's something about you and I don't know what
Can't pinpoint you anywhere; can't figure this out.
All I know is that you're wrong, so wrong
But I know this is so right.
Playing with boys
Leading them on
Playing with danger and I don't know why.
Loving the thrill of your words, your touch
Is it lying to you if I don't know myself if this is worth the cost?
Who knows if it will last.
See if the ice will hold or break by headfirst jumping in.
It's stupid of me
I'm flirting with fire
But when your hands catch me tight
The intoxicating high is worth the risk of a diving fall.
Taking the fire against me and letting it burn. Burn away
Burn against my breast as your heart beats too tight
Burn the break of day.
I want you here with me at the break of day
But my mind tells me no everytime I try to stay.
At the end of it all, will you accuse me of false intentions?
Will you point a finger and say, She led me on without a care?
Is it my fault if my heart wants this to last
Even as my mind tells me no?
Is it my fault.
Here, flirting with fire.
Not caring about the cost.

(Yeah, so I write songs and poems from a guy's point of view. Rather frequently too. Deal with it. :p And don't take these ones too autobiographically lol, or else you'll be REALLY weirded out.)

You watch Pixar with abandon
And love popsicles on a hot summer day
You literally dance around the house when your favorite song comes on
Not even caring that I might think you're insane.

You're still scared of the dark
And love it when I scratch your back at night.
You cry at almost everything sappy
You laugh at your immaturity but I think it's just right.

It's like we're teenagers so deep in love
You've got me lovedrunk tonight.
You're so cute when you're confused how you always turn me on
You're making me come alive.

Little darling, please never change.
Never lose that innocence
Or childish wonder.
Darling please never grow up
So you can always fit perfectly
Under my arm.
I promise you kid
I'll protect you from this world
I'll kill the man who breaks your heart.
I'll stay with you forever
Just please never grow up.

Despite your heartbreaks you still believe
That people are really good at heart.
You hate sleeping alone with a passion
Always make a wish on a falling star.

You skip and spin sometimes just for the sheer joy of it
You sing in the parking lots and don't care a bit.
You still love dressing up like a little kid
You melt like it's the first time every time we kiss.

It's like we're teenagers so deep in love
You've got me lovedrunk tonight.
You're so cute when you don't get how you turn me on
You're making me truly come alive for the first time.

Little darling, please never change.
Never lose that innocence
Or childish wonder.
Darling please never grow up
So you can always fit perfectly
In my arms.
I promise you kid
I'll protect you from this world
I'll kill the man who breaks your heart.
I'll stay with you forever
Just please never grow up.

(Love ya kid
Never grow up.)

NEVER IS ALWAYS TRUE

(This is a song I wrote last year. For some reason, it's probably one of my top 3 favorite songs of mine. Still working on re-chording it...the chords I currently have don't really work all that well.)

[1st vs] Sitting here side by side
His arm not quite touching mine
His brown curls tossing in the breeze
Only a few moments 'fore he has to leave.

He looks up at me and I laugh and say
I wanna write you a song someday
Coz I love you so
He says like it don't show
But don't write a song for me
I beg of you--my darling, please.
And I shrug coyly
But he don't see
How much he means to me.

[pre-chorus] He says I should never be in your life
Never ever in my song?
Suit yourself.

[chorus] So this is the song I never wrote
About this guy I never met.
His eyes are never blue
Never in a good mood.
But if I ever wrote a song
I'd have to sing the whole day long
I could write a novel and it would never begin to say
How much he never makes my day.
How much he never makes my day.

[2nd vs] Lying here on his trampoline
Listening to each other breathe.
His arms holding me so tight
Oh God I'd give anything if he'd be mine.

He looks up at me and I tell him now
I kind of wrote you this....little song.
He says I wish you wouldn't
Oh can't you see
That I want us to be?

[2nd pre-chorus] He says I don't deserve you
Well maybe that's true
Does it mean I still can't want you?
Does it mean you can't want me too.

[chorus]

[3rd vs] Watching TV on his bed
Keeping it cool coz we're waiting instead.
But his arms are holding me so near
Do you think we're being wise my darling dear

But it feels so safe; this night can't be too long
And to tell you that I wrote you this song.
Coz you're the beat of my heart---the breath of my life.
If you ask me I'll be your wife.
Oh catch me and make me your wife.

[chorus]

[bridge]  Coz he's darling and chivalrous--he never lets me go
Without a big hug and kind words and it all goes to show
If I ever wrote about this non-existent guy
To tell the truth he's changed my life
Oh I can't tell he's changed my life.

[end-chorus]  Never in my life
Never in my soul
Never in my heart
I am never alone
His blue eyes never give me joy
He's never my light when I'm lost in the dark.
He never gives me huge warm hugs.
And he'll never ever break my heart.

(A song I wrote a year ago. Short and sweet. I like those sorts of songs....)

            Dm                       F
[vs]  You've accused me of infidelity
      Dm                 C
And being a flippant flirt.
      Dm                           F
You have said you'd rather be dead
       Dm                    C
Than live through all this hurt.
       Dm                    F
But you're a man--I'm Peter Pan
       Dm                    C
Little girl not done growing up.
       Dm                    F
I don't know where I want to go
       Dm                    C
Can't even understand my own heart.
                                      Dm
[pre-chorus] But you've been here forever
          F
A faithful friend
          Dm
And a man like you 
           C
Deserves a woman's hand.

                Dm    F       Dm      C
[chorus] And I swear to you tonight
    Dm             F         Gm      F        C
That I won't let go--won't give up the fight.
     Dm             F             Dm       C
You can count on me....for once I'll be
   F    C        C   F4
So true---if only to you
   Dm    C    F4    F
I'll be true to you.