(Isn't it a little early for depressing VD poems? Really muse? Really?)

I spent all this morning crying
After we talked till four last night.
Said you're so much better off without me
So happy now that I'm not in your life.

I'm glad you're doing okay, really
But I wish that you'd miss me too.
When I could barely live without you
Everybody today's got someone to hold
But me.
But me.

So Happy Lover's Day baby
Hope you don't feel too alone.
Happy Stupid Heart's Day
Someday you'll have someone else to hold.
Will you tell her that she's beautiful?
Will you tell her you'll always be there too?
It's hard to live life here without you.
Wish that you would miss me too.

I miss you so much.
I loved you and I'm still here falling.
I can never be the same.
Happy Valentine's Day, darling.

My momma's in her bedroom praying
Caught me crying over the dishes tonight.
She don't even know the half of it
I'm forcing it all to stay inside.

I used to crush on most cute polite boys
Haven't even looked at one since last July.
Not a day goes by when I don't think of you.
I wish you'd think of me tonight.
Miss me
Tonight.

So Happy Lover's Day baby
Hope you don't feel too alone.
Happy Stupid Heart's Day
Someday you'll have someone else to hold.
Will you tell her that she's beautiful?
Will you tell her you'll always be there too?
It's hard to live life here without you.
Wish that you would miss me too.

I miss you so much.
I loved you and I'm still here falling.
I can never be the same.
Happy Valentine's Day, darling.

There's a stain on the collar of my favorite shirt where your red lips once pressed
There's still a stain on my pillowcase where your tears fell on our last night.
There's a hole in my wall where you hung up the photo of us counting fairytales in the clouds
There's an empty slot in the first number on my lonely speed dial.

I hope you're enjoying riding solo
Though now I'm finally free
I'm more taken than ever before.

You've tainted my entire life
Every memory is marred.
Though you escaped with fragments of yourself
You left a stain upon my heart.

Your honey-soft scent won't leave my sheets though I've washed them seven times
You've left a nail-mark over the door where I torn down your mistletoe.
There's still a stain on my lips of your taste and I can't get it off--I tried.
I don't know why I still miss you---what possessed me to let you go?

I hope you're enjoying riding solo
Though now I'm finally free
I'm more enslaved than ever before.

You've tainted my entire life
Every memory is marred.
Though you escaped with fragments of yourself
You left an irreversible stain upon my heart.

Love cannot wash it away
Blood cannot dull this pain.
Scour till I disappear in raw oblivion
But I cannot escape this stain.

You've bled into my entire life
Blotted out even night's pleasures with your star.
You choke every breath I try to breathe
With your stain upon my heart.

(For the record, this is not one of those 100% true autobiographical poems. [Though it might be like 84% accurate...who knows. :p ] I do not quote Cinderella, nor do I sleep with teddy bears. Some of my friends do, however, and I've drawn from several lives to make this compilation. So have at it.)

They say the world is better
When seen through the eyes of a child
But I'm too jaded for any of that
Couldn't bring myself to even try a little.

But the joy you find in a candy cane
And a minty sticky kiss
The magic of Christmas Eve and Morn
And presents on your 21st.

The first crocus of spring, the falling snow
You find happiness in the most ridiculous things.
In rainstorms, cologne, and being held close
You make excuses, but I love every single thing.

But I was born a cynic
You were born with a rose in your heart.
I always laughed at fairytales
But you're making this one come alive.
And there's just something about your laugh
Your stunning beauty always takes me by surprise.
To live with your fresh innocence all the day
I wanna see Christmas through your eyes.

You quote Cinderella and Enchanted all the time
You still sleep with your stuffed animals at night.
You're so trusting, so loving, so amazingly stupid--
Darling, I want to make you my wife.

I've been there, done that, heard it all before
But I get lost inside your eyes.
I want to be close enough to hear your heart beat
To know you as I know myself and read your every disguise.

But I was born a cynic
You were born with a rose in your heart.
I always laughed at fairytales
But you're making this one come alive.
And there's just something about your kiss
Your stunning beauty always takes me by surprise.
To live with your fresh innocence all the day
I wanna see Christmas through your eyes.

Ignore the mistletoe and fortify the cynics
Walls put up to guard my heart.
But I don't know about that.....
I wanna see Christmas through  your eyes.
I wanna see my world through your eyes
Come into my world
Open up my eyes
To see my life through your eyes.

Icicles piercing downward
Tinsel on the tree.
Snowflakes on my eyelashes
Melting into me.
It's all I can do not to break away
All I can bleed is my life.
When the pain is so sharp I can't take anymore
Baby, just let me end it tonight.
When you don't have a point or a purpose
And it keeps getting harder--keep score.
Each Christmas draws deeper to misery
Sail away on the grey-golden shores.
And the beautiful glittering steel
Oh this pain at least I can endure.
Draw in glistening crimson calligraphy
When I bleed I can't feel anymore.
Dripping down skin and arms
Tainting the fire's red flame.
I'm damned if I do and I'm damned if I don't
There's no going back today.

In your eyes bleed the heartbreaking beauty
That first drew me to your lonely side.
You can't see the forest for the trees
How much impact bears your little life.
Though you might feel you've fallen from heaven
You're the best thing that's ever happened to me.
My best chance at becoming a Man
My heart was nailed to your tree.
These lies that your mind is feeding
They would be less if you lived a less life.
But you love far too much to be left alone
And I won't leave you empty tonight.
This is blackest of midnight for you dear
But I swear: the dawn will come.
And I'll hold you to keep you till that needed time
When you can finally see this truth on your own.

So curl up by the fireside
Keep me in the warmth of your arms.
Lie still here, my darling.
You're safe within my arms.
Lie still here, my darling.
In this cold of night I will keep you warm.
Keep you breathing by my life and blood
I can't do this.
Trust me.
Lay still within my arms.

You wanted to prove you can beat her
To show you'd come out on top
She couldn't keep you down, oh no
You could keep it up when she cried stop

Make you feel like more of a man
To be the one to make her cry.
Took control before she took you over
Before you said goodbye.

So you broke her
So you're stronger
Well congratulations kid.
You can beat her blue
And you made it through
Hope you're happy with what you did.

You promised her forever and always
And blushed like heck when it didn't come true.
It was her fault and it was your fault too.
Why'd you act like it didn't matter to you?

So you told her you were so over her
And you tightened your heart against her gut-wrenched tears
Left her weeping while you were torn up deep inside
Your bedmates--shattered dreams and her haunted fears.

So you broke her
So you're stronger
Well congratulations kid.
You can beat her blue
And you made it through
Hope you're happy with what you did.

Do you feel like a man?
Do you feel better now?
Do you feel like you're strong
When you pushed her so far?
Do you feel you are stronger
Than she deserves to be?
Do you feel you deserved her
When she forsook heaven to be with thee?

Yeah, she's broken.
You've proved you're stronger
Well congratulations kid.
You beat her blue
You made it through.
Are you happy with what you did?

Been told I was beautiful, been told I could trust
He told me all those things before.
And then he raked me over the coals
And left me broken, too deep to stand.
I swear love has taken its toll from me
I'll love when the man in the moon eats blue cheese.
But you're beginning to haunt all my dreams
And it's more than I can stand.

I swear I'll never do it again
But all it takes is one look in your eyes
And I'm falling in love again.

I'm too messed up to be worth a try anymore
The sort of man I want's the sort of man I can't deserve.
To be agonizingly stretched between two worlds
But I don't want to be alone.
And your eyes hold the beautiful depths of the blue broken sea
I want nothing more than to make you laugh--really laugh--at everything I say.
Your slightest touch turns me on quicker than anything he ever tried
And when you put your arms around me I don't feel quite so cold.

I swore I'd never do it again
But every time I look in your eyes
I'm falling hopelessly again.

Too scared to believe what you promised me
Too difficult to trust you could actually mean what you say.
I've been promised a happily ever after and a weekend later it meant nothing
Can you change this fear?
Can you keep trying no matter what when something makes me turn you away
When there's nothing more in the world that I want than for you to ignore me and to tell me you'll stay
To grab me when I cry and push you away and swear you'll never leave, baby.
Can you somehow build me this dream?

I swear I'll never do it again
The pain---it costs too much.
But when you turn me to water with the mere thought of your touch
Who's to say what's worth too much?
A little bit too scared to trust
Coz I want this so badly I can't stand its loss.
The fairytales and songs wouldn't promise forever and always
If it never ever came true.
If it came true for them
Could it...maybe...come true for me and you?

I swear I'll never do it again.....
But one look in your eyes
Your beautiful eyes
Your heartbreaking enchanting blue eyes
That drown me so deep that I lose my soul
I'm so lost I can never find my way out
One look in your eyes
And I'm falling in love again.

It's so utterly dang cold outside
I think I'll never get warm again.
Then your arms emerge from nowhere and catch me from behind
And the blood starts pulsing through my veins.
All I can see is your beauty
And all I can taste is your life.
You're the warmth that keeps my heart beating
I don't wanna ride solo tonight.
Every rule is made to be broken
Everything made to be disproved.
I don't want anyone else to hear me
It's all I can do not to think of you.

The snow will never stop falling
Drown me in icy reprieve.
The wind brings your name to me calling out loud
You're the closest to God that I'll ever be.
All good things come to an end eventually
Coz you never know it was good till it's gone.
You inhabit my dreams; you've awakened all my fears
How can what's so right for me be so wrong?
Everything is made to be broken
Every rule to be shattered in half.
You're the exception to everything I ever knew
If I had you forever it'd wouldn't be enough.

Strike me, bleed me, just don't leave me in the dark.
If I bleed at least I'll know this is real.
When you're cut and you're screaming you know you're alive
Nothing good is meant to last eternally.
You were the greatest thing heaven ever gave me
And the thing that made me be condemned.
But we don't need to talk when you're holding me close
Lovers say all they need without words.
The clear water is melting to sunlight
And then freezing love over again
But don't care about that, darling, just hold me close
And wish tonight would never end
This night would never end.

If all we have is this moment
I'd do it all over again.
So keep me here till the light brings our darkness
Dear God, let this night never end.

(Hurrah for the very first candy cane of the season! :p )

Candy cane magic Christmas wonderland
With the snowy world undercover and your taste like mint
And I'll chase you round the mistletoe till you give in
For an intoxicating very first candy cane kiss.

Candy cane magic Christmas wonderland
It's once in a  lifetine, to ever have a love like this
I've tried before, but there's something about you I can't just resist
With your sugar-freckled nose and your drowning blue eyes and your cute little hints.

Candy cane magic to madly drag you in
So come a little closer or run and I'll chase you and lift you off your feet
And though it ain't mine, you're still innocent as snow unfallen
I'll make your head spin like you already drive me wild with our very first kiss.

Candy cane magic Christmas wonderland
I love you, I love you, I love you, more than you can know, she said.
My shivers are stilled by your arms' strong protective warmth
As your lips whisper, You can choose what you will with your one wish.

Candy cane magic Christmas wonderland!
Magic of snow and sugar and romance and true love's kiss
Mistletoe--wash my face in snow--can't help but give in
To the candy cane Christmas magic of your meltable wonderland.

Merry Christmas, darling
Tonight on Christmas Eve.
Do you ever see? Do you even care?
Good thing love feeds itself on dreams.

Merry Christmas, darling.
Here's a present just for you; open up.
Please try not to break it
I'm giving you my heart.

I can't sleep all night long
Wondering if tomorrow Santa'll finally give me my Christmas wish

Tonight is magic--Never let me go
You break me down--you're all I've ever known.
Of a thousand wishes, you're the one that must come true.
At 11:11 every night I'll make a wish for you.

Falling snowflakes spinning fairytales
Tonight on Christmas Eve.
You sit by me and my mind sends me
Breathlessly through a fantasy.

Catch me under the mistletoe
Kiss me so hard I can't breathe
So many things I want for Christmas, but
You are all I need.

I can't sleep all night long
Wondering if tomorrow Santa'll finally give me my Christmas wish

Tonight is magic--Never let me go
You break me down--you're all I've ever known.
Of a thousand wishes, you're the one that must come true.
At 11:11 every night I'll make a wish for you.

Merry Christmas, darling
Woke up this morning with cold dreams
Next year I wanna wake up with nothing else
But you beside me.

I'll use the magic of all I know
Freeze to find ten falling stars
Close my eyes tight every morning and night
To turn these twos all to magical ones.

(Add 'em up and they equal me and you.)

Merry Christmas darling
At 11:11 every night
I'll make my wish for you.

Why do you sometimes cry yourself to sleep
Over seemingly trivial things?
Why do you have eyes with more shattered dreams
Than a broken glass by the sea?
Why do you recoil over the mere thought of love
Of trying to (somehow) trust again?
The depth in those eyes isn't caused by mere joy
Can't blame you for shying away now from love.
Why do you so passionately hate your cold bed
Where came this irresistible need to be held?
Why do you want to be broken free so badly
Broken out of your enforced shell?

It comes of a broken heart.

How can you let yourself keep on giving
Despite where love led you last?
How can you still believe people mean it for the best?
When he only wanted you on demand.
Why do you look at the world with fresh eyes--
The same eyes that can't hide the fragments of love within?
And you still think a man will come and sweep you off your feet into his warm arms
How can you still believe in the magic of a first kiss?
Why aren't you jaded?
Why isn't your heart seared?
Why aren't you distant and cynical now?
Why is your heart so blind yet so refreshingly clear?

It comes of a romantic's heart.
A stupid romantic heart
That keeps on believing even while it is bleeding
It comes of a romantic heart.