Flying high with the lords of dark
To try to paint the man in the sky.
You fall all the harder
For flying that high.

Feeding the ghosts of the graveyard
Is this what you really wanted?
You seem to be getting along just fine.
I'm still trapped here, haunted.

Sunlight and shadows
Ashes and champagne.
Blasphemy hallowed
In the light of that train.

Don't lie, don't say you're sorry
It's only now I see the truth.
Drown in the orbit of the oncoming tide--
I'm still in love with you.

Deluged by the condemnations
That question me in the night--
Did I make it so easy for you
To walk right out of my life?

You were ribbons and chocolate on Valentine's Day
The mistletoe on New Year's Eve.
I can't get away from you with each breath
You're still the reason my broken heart beats.

Sunlight and shadows
Ashes and champagne.
Blasphemy hallowed
In the light of that train.

Don't lie, don't say you're sorry
It's only now I see the truth.
Drown in the orbit of the oncoming tide--
I'm still in love with you.

Feeding the ghosts of our crypts and souls
Indulging in the pain of pleasure gone awry.
Nothing so right ever felt so wrong
Nothing so wrong ever felt so right.

Sunlight and shadows
Ashes and champagne.
Blasphemy hallowed
In the light of that train.

Don't lie, don't say you're sorry
It's only now I see the truth.
Drown in the orbit of the oncoming tide--
I'm still in love with you.

(This is partly serious, mostly tongue-in-cheek, and entirely stupid. But it was great therapy to write. )

I always fall
For the wrong sorts of men.
Time to be a jerk
To everyone.
Separate the wheat from the chaff--
If you ask me out I'll say
Sorry, but I can't date
Coz if I like you then you're probably a jerk
And if I don't, then what does it matter anyway?

Show me a man who's not a douche
And I'll show you a dinosaur.
You're as likely to find one as the other
Walking into your home town.

I only see your true colors
When you choose to leave.
It's hard to trust when you only see
Reality after they break your dreams.

You're a toad, you're a douche, you're a lowdown fraud
And I'm tired of kissing all these frogs.

They're all the same
How can you say
Oh come and save me boy
When he's too busy playing video games?

And gelling his hair
And updating his twitter
The dragons could come and eat me up
For all he cares.

I only see your true colors
When you choose to leave.
It's hard to trust when you only see
Reality after they break your dreams.

You're a toad, you're a douche, you're a lowdown fraud
And I'm tired of kissing all these frogs.

Strike me ugly, strike me blind
Before I ever go out again.
You're a tool, you're a douche, and you're definitely a fraud--
And you all want to be my boyfriend!

I'm tired of kissing all these frogs
And expecting Prince Charming to pop out of the ground.
I'm done with men and all their drama
It's too late for you to come around.

Toads and douches and awful frauds
I think I'll just stick with my dog.

                  C       G
[1st vs] I condemn myself too easily
     C     G
I once believed in grace.
    C      F
It's hard to fall asleep sometimes
    C      G
Outside of your embrace.

                     G
[pre-chorus] Never-ending
  C          F         Am        G
The love that led me down this road.
    G
Ever-growing
  C           F        Am         G
The love that traps me in this hole.

                       C           G         Am             G
[chorus] So I'll take that plunge, and watch the blood drip off my sleeve.
     C           G         Am             G
Drown my path in this water; bleed away my belief.
   C           G         Am             G
You'll be the scar in my heart I cover with my sleeve
   F            C         Am             G
Yeah no one sees these x-es on my wrist that spells peace.

 C
Anything
   Dm   C    G
I'll do if I can smile again.
   C
Oh my God
   Dm   Am      G
Just give me a reason to live.

[2nd vs] You condemn me far too easily
I used to believe in your grace.
I'll gladly swallow whatever you give me
In your arsenic laced.

[2nd pre-chorus]  Never-ending
The blindness keeping me caring.
Ever-growing
The blindness believing you'll come back here.

[chorus] So I'll take that plunge, and watch the blood drip off my sleeve.
Drown my path in this water; bleed away my belief.
You'll be the scar in my heart I cover with my sleeve
Yeah no one sees these x-es on my wrist that spells peace.

Anything
I'll do if I can smile again.
Oh my God
Just give me a reason to live.

[3rd vs] Take it out physically
Maybe then it'll take it all.
Take this pain away from my heart.
Oh replace this lie with drugs,
Sex, alcohol, anything that can
Fill this void.....

[bridge] Pulling me down
Washing you out of my hair
In the river--icy hands taking every piece of me.
Give me hope, give me anything
I swear I won't fall so again this time.

[3rd pre-chorus]  Never-ending
If you're calling now you're almost too late.
Ever-growing
Is that the light at the end, or just the oncoming train?

[end-chorus] Anything
Take this soul, just get me out of this pain.
Oh my God
Don't let me be so far gone to save.

Show me time can close the wounds I gave myself
Asking from the depths of my heart
I don't wanna give up on love
Give me anything
My heart cries out.

Standing on the edge of the plank
No one knows how much it takes
To hold back
From falling down
To see if you can fly.

Crumpling onto bloody knees
Your God can't even see a thing.
So tempting too
Just fall into
This black hole of answers in the sky.

Sacrificing a child's heart
For reality a la carte
Trade naivety
For seductive clarity
Don't trust him with your life.

Scouring a faithful home
To feed the ever-insatiable trolls
Who demanded a soul
As scapegoat
If he doesn't even try.

Oh you know he will not try
You know you face the fire
Enmasked in a shroud
Of eternity's dawn
Bleeding down from starful eyes.

Deceptive reality, to soar
Till you come to that final door.
You know it all
You know you'll fall
Don't take the flight.

Standing on the edge of the brink
In the wink of an eye, that's all it takes.
Throw yourself down
Through with waiting around
And in the falling you find you can fly.

I'm lying here in emptiness
Trying to ease my soul
Of those angry words you gave to me
Before you left me alone.

If only you had not led me on;
Not tried to still reach out to me--
Not tried to love me, but not how I wanted;
It's your fault you don't have me.

I won't try to lie
I won't try to fight.
I won't shift the blame
Accusing me in your eyes.

And though I don't know
Anything different I could do,
It's all my fault
You've made that clear.
My fault that I lost you.

Nothing you can do could make this better
Coz you don't care enough to try
To be kind or thoughtful or just humanly decent
To try and spare me with a lie.

I wish I could hide, I wish I could die
Do anything but lie here and take it.
As you beat me over, compound my guilt;
Awaken pain that should ever be dormant.

I won't try to lie
I won't try to fight.
I won't shift the blame
Accusing me in your eyes.

And though I don't know
Anything different I could do,
It's all my fault
You've made that clear.
My fault that I lost you.

It's all my fault
I saw it coming.
I did what I could to help.
But you say it only made it worse.
Nothing left can save me from this hell.

It's all my fault.
You've made that clear.
Leave me now to face the truth.
It's all my fault
You never lie.....
My fault I lost all of you.

We used to be so much more than just friends
And now all that we had is gone.
I'm trying to hang on here
But I'm doing it all wrong.

You're breaking my heart each ignored chance
Another day that you don't call.
I'm left questioning everything we ever had
Did I mean anything to you at all?

If this is it, I can't face it.
It's all falling through.
And it feels like hell to me now.
Have I lost you?

Trapped in a haze of heat and lust
And all forms of passion and love.
Now I'm left picking up the pieces
Of the explosion of my brushed-over heart.

Was it nothing to you? The months I was yours
The hours spent together, on the phone?
I spilled so much out for you.
I can't seem to find my way home.

If this is it, I can't take it.
Around my ears it's crashing through.
And it feels like hell to me now.
Have I lost you?

I can't seem to pretend like you can
Can't breathe it all away.
Can't stop yearning for your warmth.
Still wait by the phone each day.

And yet apparently I'm better than I knew
Coz you don't even seem to know
i'm dying a little bit more each day
Behind this mask I wear for the world.

I can't help but tell myself--I have to believe...
That if you really knew the depth of this pain
You'd call, you'd try to do what you said you would do
You wouldn't be treating me this way.

If this is it, I can't take it.
Everything I knew is crashing through.
It positively feels like hell to me now.
Have I lost you?

Iron control, determined will
And still the mere thought of you breaks me down.
You said you would stay.
You said you'd stick around...

I still need you like I need air
Yearn achingly for your touch to ease this pain.
But all I ask is that you keep your word.
Please, just remember. Don't end it this way.

Take my soul as repayment if you must
But don't damn me to this hell.
I will live without asking a thing more, I swear.
Nothing but my eyes will tell.

Was it nothing at all to you?
How can you go from forever to nothing anymore?
Cold turkey is the best way to beat an addiction...
But you promised, darling. You swore.

This is it and I still can't take it.
This is it and I'm running from the truth.
The cost of my heaven was the hell I was thrown into
When you left me.
I still can't believe it was you.

I saw it coming all along
And I refused to believe.
But now I face the truth.
I've lost you.

God spare me from this truth.
I've forever lost you.

 Halo of sunshine on an upturned face
Deep eyes that couldn't lie.
Selfless empathy, you spilled your soul
Couldn't color you jaded if you tried.

Fighting for a look at a clean heart
But it was marked all up with scars:
I tried, they said; and failed, they bled
In crimson they spelt love.

Oh I can't let go
Of the trappings of reality that lend illusions of control.
And I can't save you
But you can save this world.

Found out I still had innocence left
By losing all of it.
If this sweet pain without regret
Is love, I'll gladly pay the cost.

You're the only thing I loved
Like trying to pin the ocean down
Just because I'm sorry doesn't mean
I regret it now.

Oh I can't let go
Of the trappings of reality that lend illusions of control.
And I can't save you
But it's you who can save this world.

Stupidity that couldn't protect you from harm
Tearing down the walls I built for you.
Masochistic little freak, do you need more scars?
What more do you want to prove?

Blind love that sees only the hope
Of gold in every blackened heart.
Refusing the lies told so often they're true
Makes each of us who we are.

Breaking it all down
Boring into the soul.
Searing the heart that tries to heal
Coz Judases are all we know.

Oh I can't let go
Of the trappings of reality that lend illusions of control.
And I can't save you
But you can save this world.

Bite the hand that reaches out to us
And the heart that pours out her blood
Futilely pulling us back from the brink
Willing trust into existence. Painting the world with love.

I can see now
Though you kill yourself trying, you will still try.
I can't save you
But you'll sacrifice yourself to save this world.

I'll follow
The shadow of the truth you've left in your wake.
Wait for me
I'm coming
Coz it's you who will save this world.

(Inspired by an old fairy-tale.)

Blue button shoes on the sidewalk cracks
She walks through the door.
No one can hear her when she laughs
She never asks for more.

Small-town boy locked inside his heart
Beating to the times.
He's searching, looking, never seeing
What's right before his eyes.

No one can find the little button girl
All the dead matches of her empty book on the floor.
Lies in the heartbreak that is her world
Who has the key? Who can even find the door?

Blue button toes in a ribboned state
Red lips stolen in the cold.
Her eyes are merry, deceiving you:
They swear she's not alone.

Buried in the embers
And lost inside the flames.
He touched her heart, he burned inside
They never left the same.

No one can find the little button girl
All the dead matches of her empty book on the floor.
Left in the heartbreak that is her world
Who has the key? Who can even find the door?

Tumbling, sprawling, brokenness calling
Oceans surging in that world
Of heartbeats melding through an illusion of skin
Innocence of a boy and a girl.

Running, fleeing, terror in the find
Finally knowing what all men have sought.
Washing her hair, she leaves forever
The path with delicious danger fraught.

He cannot find the little button girl
All the broken matches of her heart on the floor.
Lost in the loneliness that is her doomed soul.
He lost the key.
Who can ever find her door?

Snapshot of memories on a slide
Going forever through my heart.
Like I gambled it thoughtlessly
On a game of love's roulette.

Can't seem to shake it off
Or let it go.
I can't get over you
And I need you to know

Can't stop thinking about you
Can't seem to forget your face.
Something in the way you broke me
And your laughter, and the way you taste.

Don't remind me, I can't take it
You're the very air I breathe.
Filling me so I never forget my biggest mistake
You're everything in me.

My world in your eyes
In green, blue, and gold
I'd never regret a thing
If I kept my word to have and hold

The way you'd laugh and wrinkle your nose
And the funny way you'd speak
Like a child you loved everything
With all you had, you loved me.

Can't seem to shake it off
Or let it go.
I can't get over you
And I need you to know

Can't stop thinking about you
Can't seem to forget your face.
Something in the way you broke me
And your laughter, and the way you taste.

Don't remind me, I can't take it
You're the very air I breathe.
Filling me so I never forget my biggest mistake
You're everything in me.

Why I threw that away I'll never know
Why I put down my foot and refused to let go
Why I determined to make you agree
It just goes to show
You were always too good for me.

My way or the highway
And you chose the road
I'll never understand
Why I just let you go
Why I just let you go
Let you go....

Can't seem to shake it off
Or let it go.
I can't get over you
And I wish I had known

Don't remind me, I can't take it
You're the very air I breathe.
So I never forget my biggest mistake
You're everything in me.

Ribbon threading through the night
Thrums with light-filled words
Groaning for a woman's touch
To feel the near re-birth.

Near the bleeding dawn
Passion darkest ere it comes
Deep desires consume the night
Till even love cannot succumb.

Open up and sing me
The music of your heart.
Open up and sing me
The music of the dark.

Sing me what remains
When there's nothing left in your heart.
Sing your soul, your rhythm, your heart's full passion--
Sing me a song of love.

Music chilling into dark repose
Each note pooling in its ink-black blood.
In past history unbroken, unscarred
I'd never sing of love.

Congeals in bluest silence
Pricking death into the heart
Ere I tasted the soul's inspiration
Of bleeding life-changing love.

Open up and sing me
The music of your heart.
Open up and sing me
The music of the dark.

Sing me what remains
When there's nothing left in your heart.
Sing your soul, your rhythm, your blood's full passion--
Sing me a song of love.

When your heart is struck and broken
Sing me a song of love.
When it's bleeding out before you
Sing me a song of love.

In the dark it's all that remains
When there's nothing left to save.
Nothing you do is going to change

Sing me a song of love.