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  • YOU WITH THE SAD SMILE 11-12-11 & 11-27-11 Pong

    You with the sad smile
    And the broken heart on your sleeve.
    You loved and lost and now
    It's just too hard to believe.

    You wear your love like a shroud
    And it masks off your face.
    Cancels out the pain so no one sees
    You don't believe in grace.

    You with the broken eyes
    Like an open book of your scars.
    Read every page of your history
    Of the boys who marked your heart.

    You don't know but you can't go
    Away from here, it keeps you in.
    Drawn to the love he dishes out
    Like a bitter poison.

    You with the open heart
    Don't let the pain deceive you.
    I know when you let him in and he betrayed you
    All the reality you denied became all too true.

    It's too hard to keep on trusting
    To let yourself fall again.
    But you can't give up on it now
    Don't you let go of love.

    You with the sad smile
    Let him touch your face.
    Don't listen to your reason's fears.
    Let yourself trust in grace.

    Let go of the pain
    Another dawn can come.
    This time it can be new.
    Again, you can fall in love.

    It won't be like it was then.
    You will fall in love again.

  • THIS SHIP IS GOING DOWN 11-27-11 Song

    [1st vs] Tip of the iceberg
    That's all it takes.
    From perfection to reality:
    One simple mistake.

    Laughing in the fire
    Bleeding out into the dawn.
    Nothing's left to say, love.
    This ship's going down.

    [chorus] Raise that flag
    This ship's going down.
    We're dancing even as we drown, dear
    The Titanic of our love.

    [2nd vs] A thorn behind that rose
    Or was it a rose behind the thorn?
    Your mask like an angel hid your horns
    Not all that glitters is gold.

    The fires when you touched me
    Should've set off my alarms
    But I couldn't escape the sweetness of the pain
    Drowning willingly in your arms.

    [chorus] Raise that flag
    This ship's going down.
    We're dancing even as we drown, dear
    The Titanic of our love.

    Don't raise a flag of surrender
    Losing the war he's already won.
    Drowning, but hey boy, I can still dance
    As this ship's going down.

    White flag stained with heartbreak
    Flying forlornly on the wreckage of love
    Gasping for breath around your lips
    This ship is going down.

  • DANCING WITH THE DEVIL 11-13-11 Pong

    Breathing into this corpse
    Of bruised blackened bloodless love.
    The fanged darkness approaches
    When the dawn hits we're going down.

    Standing silent in the starlight
    Screaming out to God above
    Reveling in all the silence
    When the dawn hits we're going down.

    Dancing with the Devil in this burning room.

    Passion, power poured out into you
    You would've brought life to the undead.
    The animation of truest love
    Before polaristic natures came to a head.

    Night and day dancing round the issues
    Our love sealing our lips till then.
    Driving apart, drawing together
    Two magnets irrevocably come to a head.

    Dancing with the Devil in a burning room.

    Fruitful, vibrant, vivacious lives
    All those other girls you drained dry.
    Left like ghosts, so shallow, so alone
    No living tear trembles for that in your eyes.

    Cringing, crawling, enforcing these lies
    Lying right through your teeth like the sucker you are.
    Did you ever care that I believed in you?
    That my life once revolved around your star.

    Dancing with the Devil in a burning room.

    Fading into the blackness
    Of the deceptive warmth of your arms.
    Sighing away my life in the process
    This last dance in your burning room.

    Dancing with you in this burning room
    One last time.

  • IT'S YOU AND ALL YOUR FAULTS 11-7-11 Song

    [chorus] It's you and all your faults
    And all your darn problems
    And the way you drive your people away
    And it's in your broken heart
    And the way you fall apart
    And how you always put your defenses up a little too late.

    [1st vs] Hey hey, you know
    You drive me crazy in the way
    And I hate and love you
    All the same.

    Why I still stick around I'm sure I don't know
    Ever since we pulled the plug
    Coz now you're acting like a stranger
    When only yesterday we were in love.

    [2nd] All the passion and force poured out in our hearts
    Was sure to bring about its share of fights.
    The scars in my heart like the scar on my mouth
    When you kissed me that last time.

    The very first time you kissed me
    And then I knew the truth behind the poems and the songs.
    The way you'd touch me and then grab me roughly
    The sheer pleasure in your arms.

    [3rd] When you'd be a jerk--I'd break down in tears
    Or punish you by refusing to return your calls
    An entire summer of using up all our minutes
    The three weeks in the fall of not talking at all.

    [end-chorus] You and all your faults
    And how I hate very flaw
    How I hate that I still love you when you drove me away.
    Coz you put up all those walls
    It was your heart in danger
    And though you told me no, you still wanted me to stay.

    To stay, to stay
    Who would've known--still in love
    But you still won't change your mind.

    You still won't change your mind.

    How I knew every level of your very soul
    You knew what I'd say before I did.
    We were perfect, oh so wrong and so very very right
    Until that night you changed your mind.

  • A GIRL WHO SEES YOUR EVERY FLAW 11-7-11 Song

    [1st vs] Friday night and you're leaving again
    Thinking maybe this time she'll be the one.
    She's blonde, skinny, beautiful, everything I'm not
    Except that she will leave you when she's done.

    When she breaks your heart
    Shows you she don't really care
    I'm the one you call up
    Coz you know I'll be there.

    [chorus] I see who you really are
    Your true colors behind that mask
    I see who you really are
    And you deserve far better than that

    A girl who knows your every flaw
    And still wants to be right where you are.
    Can't you see
    You deserve to be with me.

    [2nd vs] You always keep a wall around your heart
    Wear your past scars like an armor of self-assurance
    But I know just what to say to make you laugh
    When you've fallen down again.

    And when you're fighting your nightmares
    And you're doing it alone coz no one else cares
    I'm the one who kneels down to help you
    Coz you know I'll always be there.

    [chorus] I see who you really are
    Your true colors behind that mask
    I see who you really are
    And you deserve far better than that

    A girl who knows your every flaw
    And still wants to be right where you are.
    Can't you see
    You deserve to be with me.

    [bridge] No one knows you like I do
    No one knows enough to care
    You keep searching and finding no one out there
    Can't we be more than friends?

    [chorus] I see who you really are
    Your true colors behind that mask
    I see who you really are
    And you deserve far better than that

    A girl who knows your every flaw
    And still wants to be right where you are.
    Can't you see
    You deserve to be with me.
    Baby you should be with me!

  • BURNING ALL OUR BRIDGES TONIGHT 10-27-11 Pong

    It's been a while
    But here we are again.
    There's a reason why we broke up
    But there's a reason why we fell in love.

    Talking of old days
    Till late into the night.
    We both know what we're doing
    Playing with fire and dynamite.

    So fragile, ready to break
    Or run away--
    You know I know we know the risk
    We're both about to take.

    Forgetting all defensive lies
    Keep your eyes on the prize
    It's been so long since I felt alive
    The risk is worth what's on the line.

    Love is true but love is blind
    Behind your back my hands are tied.
    Knocked-off shoes and two glasses of wine
    We're burning all our bridges tonight.

    Vulnerable to you
    Opening up my bruised heart.
    Still bleeding from the times
    When your leaving opened those scars.

    But on volatile ground
    Awakens the fire I once knew.
    Used to fill every waking hour
    As long as I spent those hours with you.

    So fragile, ready to break
    Or run away--
    You know I know we know the risk
    We're both about to take.

    Forgetting all defensive lies
    Keep your eyes on the prize
    It's been so long since I felt alive
    The risk is worth what's on the line.

    Love is true but love is blind
    Behind your back my hands are tied.
    Knocked-off shoes and two glasses of wine
    We're burning all our bridges tonight.

    You still intoxicate me like champagne
    All those years you too were waiting.
    And now I finally have the strength
    To give this a try again.

    Forgetting all defensive lies
    Keep your eyes on the prize
    It's been so long since I felt alive
    The risk is worth what's on the line.

    I'm willing to take the plunge tonight.

    Love is true but love is blind
    Behind your back my hands are tied.
    Knocked-off shoes and two glasses of wine
    I'm willing to take the plunge tonight.

    We're burning all our bridges tonight.

  • THE STORY OF HOW I LOST YOU 10-26-11 Pong

    Boy meets girl: in every romance
    The obstacles are parents, power, or cash.
    Never being madly in love
    While being incompatible.

    With passions to set blood afire
    And tempers boiling too.
    Falling for you was intoxicatingly brief
    I never knew love would be losing you.

    What part has logic to do with love?
    What part has reason with romance?
    The fates slipped up in our birth
    Dooming us before we had a chance.
    I just wanna get this right, just once
    Where is my missing piece?
    My God, why can't love be enough
    Will I never find you here?

    To curse and swear and lash out at heaven
    Friends, love, anything at all.
    How could I be given all I wanted
    Only when it was setting up my heart to take the fall?

    You were everything that I wanted
    You were everything that I dreamed.
    Losing my fullest, truest love--
    Yeah, everything I dreamed.

    What part has logic to do with love?
    What part has reason with romance?
    The fates slipped up in our birth
    Dooming us before we had a chance.
    I just wanna get this right, just once
    Weren't you my missing piece?
    My God, why can't love be enough
    Will I never find you here?

    Your lips on my skin were maddening
    Your touch, more intoxicating than wine.
    Surpassing my wildest fantasies
    I want you or no one at night.

    I don't care if we're on different paths
    If reason overwhelms romance.
    I can't believe it has to end like this
    Before we even started to have a chance.
    I just wanna get this right, just once
    Aren't you my missing piece?
    Still believed love can be enough
    But not enough to keep you here.

    Love is enough
    It has to be enough
    All the romances say it's true.
    Yet it can't keep us together
    Though there was never anyone more in love
    And this is
    The story
    Of how I lost you.

  • IF HE SEES HOW MUCH I'M BLEEDING.... 10-26-11 & 11-10-11 Song

    Did you mean it when you said
    I've changed my mind
    Did you mean it when you said
    We can't work it out this time ?

    Were those times you held me, touched me
    Just a charade?
    Did you know each kiss
    Was our last hurrah?

    Stumbling after, can't hold on anymore
    Only the mindless pain keeping me on track.
    I know if he sees how much I'm bleeding
    He'll have to take me back.

    Left to fight the tide of crumbling trust
    In every broken word you left me with.
    Doubt bleeds me inwardly, dragging me down.
    Did you ever feel the passion behind my kiss?

    There must be something else to hang on to.
    There must be something else to consume.
    They all say they can relate to my despair
    But I've never felt more alone.

    Stumbling after, can't hold on anymore
    Only the mindless pain keeping me on track.
    I know if he sees how much I'm bleeding
    He'll have to take me back.

    Glitter and cocktails and wine
    Men and dancing and moonlight.
    They say I just need to exert myself
    I can make be a dime-piece again if I try.

    Meaningless hook-ups and pour me more wine
    Is this what you meant when you said to try?
    Drown the pain of passion in the drug of apathy
    In his arms, I look at him and see only your eyes.

    Stumbling after, can't hold on anymore
    Only the mindless pain keeping me on track.
    I know if he sees how much I'm bleeding
    He'll have to take me back.

    Singing out into the moonlight
    Writing your name into the stars.
    I'll sing till I'm hoarse, till you hear my name again
    I'll sing till you see how I wish you weren't gone.

    Crying, screaming, breaking down on my knees.
    You left and threw my life out of whack.
    Eventually if I try, I can move on. I know.
    But for this broken heart, it's too hard a task.

    I don't want to forget what love is meant to be.
    I don't want to replace our romance with the cold hard fact.

    I know if you see how much I'm bleeding
    You'll take me back.

    You have to take me back.

     

  • EVERYTHING IN ME IS SCREAMING 10-25-11 Song

    On my knees trying to find meaning
    Sometimes the angels have nothing to say.
    I stand here smiling while my heart is breaking
    As I watch you walk away.

    I have to let these broken pieces fall
    Even though all I wanna do is make this right.
    I have to let this break your heart
    Even though it's tearing me apart inside.
    To bite back these words I wanna say
    Coz nothing I could say could save us now.

    I have to let you walk away
    Though everything in me is screaming to stay.

    Incompatible, irreconciliable, it was mutual;
    All those empty words mean is that I'm losing my love.
    They all tell me time will help.
    I used to think love was enough.

    (Oh God, why can't love be enough?)

    I have to let these broken pieces fall
    Even though all I wanna do is make this right.
    I have to let this break your heart
    Even though it's tearing me apart inside.
    To bite back these words I wanna say
    Coz nothing I could say could save us now.

    I have to let you walk away
    Though everything in me is screaming to stay.

    If you love something, set it free
    If he comes back, he's yours.
    If not, it was never meant to be.
    We were never meant to be.

    And here I'm letting you walk away
    Even though everything in me is screaming you'll stay.

    Waiting
    Watching
    And you're leaving
    And all I can do is watch you
    Walk away.

  • EFFORTLESS ILLUSION 10-25-11 Song (in progress)

    (This is all I have. Still working on the rest of it.)

    Story starts with a book broken;
    Little girl with her heart still broken.
    Gave me your love as a truthful token
    But it turned ugly when you took one look and

    Who would've knew
    That everything was falling through.
    What goes around comes around
    Should've known when I went up I was coming back down.

    You were the most effortless illusion
    And unaffectedly broke my heart with your delusion.
    Your beautiful lies were too translucent
    Now I'm left needing a love transfusion
    Heart transfusion
    Love transfusion.