(Kind of stupid. But definitely cute. :p )

So here we are, on the new dance floor
I'm shy, you've been here a thousand times before
And your friends don't see what you see in me
But when the music starts it don't mean a thing

When we walked in the park that fading eve
And you pushed me so high on that little wooden swing
Just like Beauty and the Beast we've no business together
But you're staying here--staying with me.

Dancing round my room with sheer delight
You got me dancing all night
Night--night--night
You got me dancing through life.

Opposites attract and if that's true
It means that I belong with you
You take me higher--you break me down
All my doubts are gone when you're around

With my head back laughing as we race through the town
You got me dancing around
Round--round--round
You keep my walls coming down

A little white dress and red pair of shoes
A dance that so terribly turned back on you
Tore out of your Chevy and ran into the night
All my fears broke us there reawakened by that fight....

But you ran after me and took my hand
Said I won't ever leave you on the dance floor alone
Diamond band shining in the moon's holy light
Don't leave me dancing alone through life

You keep me dancing all night
You got me dancing through life!

I was never good enough, you see
He couldn't be expected to heal the mess that was me.
But he needed me and so I stayed
In an undertow treacherously below the sea.

I wasn't pretty enough, you see.
I know this coz he told me himself many times
Didn't appreciate him like those prettier girls who wanted him
Then why did he still want me at nights?

I wasn't committed enough, you see
I stopped what was so very wrong
And he would've let it run its course to our deaths
For that I'm the one who isn't strong?

I wasn't mature enough, you see
I'd skip and sing and play tag with the kids
And be the first to apologize, never snap back in anger
But I was the one to blame when he blew his lid.

It was always my fault, you see.
If I had enough sticking power we could've made it work.
He only left when I threw in the towel
Coz to say no? Well then he'd've been a jerk.

I was never good enough, you see.
What a prize, what a gem, I was getting in him.
When he never talked to me again except to show me how much I'm missing
Yeah.
I've never met such a man.

Drove home with your beauty still in my eyes
The taste of your sweet scent intoxicating my mind.
My best friend pried it out of me in the car;
My mother knew it when I cried that night for the first time since Dad died.

I couldn't stop thinking about you.
I think that I'm in love.
My mother agreed
My sister laughed
My heart had finally woken up.

Kids in love
And it went all wrong
And I don't know what to do.
The whole summer long
Wish I could change everything
I still--so badly---miss you.

Restrained myself from calling you every day
But there were nights when I went too far.
Your daddy began hating me; your mother gave you advice
But you didn't listen coz I imprisoned your heart.

I loved you for your spirit, your beauty;
How good and how bad you were.
But because of my demands
I broke you for that
And destroyed the girl I once loved.

Kids in love
And it went all wrong
And I don't know what to do.
All we had was a summer
And I did all the wrong things
Darling.
I'm still in love with you.

Just a kid, still into video gamse
An LOTR geek, a techy nerd
But you exploded into my life that hot September
And changed me....for better or worse.

My sister knew it sooner than I
Coz the kid who never could talk to girls
Was talking to you for days on end
Giving you the huge warmest hugs.

I used to be so innocent
What I was missing I never knew.
You awakened love within me
And now I'm lost without you.

You changed me and you broke me
More than possibility knew.
When I left you
Somehow even then I knew....
I'll always regret me and you.

I never used to even touch girls
Was scared when you tried to teach me to waltz.
But the touch of you was more than I could bear
And soon I couldn't get enough.

Now I listen to all sorts of head-banging emo music
Now I know about the chills down my spine.
Now I know from experience what that song really means
Of sheer heaven when our fingers entwine.

I drove for 5 hours just to see your face for 2
Got online every day in case you'd be on.
Thought of you, obsessed about you, wanted you too
I tell myself I don't miss you....but I haven't moved on.

I used to be so innocent.
What I was missing I never knew.
You awakened true love within me
I'm hopeless without you.

You changed me and you broke me
More than possibility knew.
When I left you
Somehow even then I knew...
I'll always regret me and you.

I'm falling apart at the heartstrings
Tearing myself at the seams
It's hard to find reality
Caught in a web of dreams.

If you cut me as I'm dying
At least I'll know I'm alive.
When my blood gushes on the pavement
And it hurts too much to die.

I'm falling to hell
Don't call me naive
Yes I deserve it for believing in love.
My flesh a sheer shell
Don't mock my belief
If I bleed my heart out it'll be enough.

To repay stupidity
For believing in love
You're so naive.

Crying out against the misery
Damning my soul against one more try
His hand is reaching for me
But I like the pain in my eyes.

For lovers' lips are smooth and lying
Last time they caught me for a thrill.
I know loneliness and heartache won't forsake me ever
When they promise to stay---
They will.

I'm falling to hell
Don't call me naive
Yes I deserve it for believing in love.
My flesh a sheer shell
Don't mock my belief
If I bleed my heart out it'll be enough.

To repay stupidity
For believing in love
You're so naive.

I can put my faith in death
The only lover who will keep his word.
Hold me forever in self-chosen agony
It takes less faith than believing in love.
It takes more faith to believe in love.

So I'm trapped in this hell
Only once was naive
Yes I deserve this for believing in love.
My life left a shell
Don't mock past belief
I bled it all for you.
Isn't it enough?

I repaid my stupidity
For believing in love
I'm not naive
Anymore.

Weeping till I'm blinded; never could see straight.
My glasses torn of roses viled with failed hate.
Ghiradelli and hate songs but I can't forget
Doomed to die alone dripping with regret.

You tore me apart when you did me so much good
Broke my heart just like they said you would.
Of every boy you're the only one who found the key to fit my lock.
Well that's what you get with a romantic's heart.

Yes
That's what you get with a romantic's heart.

(A lot of the details in this one are true--heels? Swing dance? Yup, that's me. But the romance isn't so much true as something that I wish would be true...that those who love me [romantically or otherwise] would think of me, and miss me, and remember me when things in life come along to remind them of me if we part ways. Obviously I hope to be remembered for more than just a good dancer or the girl who loved TS, but hey, it made for good poetry.)

You told me I meant more than the world
How I loved all your romantic cliches.
You said I was even more beautiful with no makeup on
I laughed and told you that you lied.

Thinking back makes me cry
But I wouldn't trade these memories for anything.

When you see someone swing dance
I hope you think of my passion and the way I loved to teach you for hours on end.
When you see a girl in stilettos
I hope you remember my thing for heels and laugh.
When you think beauty
I hope you remember that low-backed purple dress--you couldn't take your eyes off me.
And when you hear Taylor Swift
I hope you think of me.

The way I'd throw myself wholeheartedly into everything
And you'd laugh as you watched me run in the waves at the beach.
Made me call you when I'd have those nightmares at night
When Teenage Dream came on the radio and you belted it out with me.

Thinking back makes me cry
But I wouldn't trade these memories for anything.

When you see someone swing dance
I hope you think of my passion and the way I loved to teach you for hours on end.
When you see a girl in stilettos
I hope you remember my thing for heels and laugh.
When you think beauty
I hope you remember that low-backed purple dress--you couldn't take your eyes off me.
And when you hear Taylor Swift
I hope you think of me.

Coz I remember every little thing about you

When I see dark brown eyes
I think of how yours hypnotized me.
When I hear that old Frank Sinatra romance
I think of how it used to mean you and me.
When I see an Axe commercial
It was the only scent you ever wore.
My old blue blanket still smells like you.
It don't take much to think of you.

I know we've got too many walls to be together
I know we're not right and I understand.
But is it too much for me to ask
That you not forget me yet?

When you see someone swing dance
I hope you think of my passion and the way I loved to teach you for hours on end.
When you see a girl in stilettos
I hope you remember my thing for heels and laugh.
When you think beauty
I hope you remember that low-backed purple dress that kept your eyes so glued on me.
And when you hear Taylor Swift
I hope you think of me.

(Note: This is not how I specifically feel. Just gonna say that right off the bat. Sure I've felt this way before [haven't we all, at times?] but I generally don't make it a lifestyle choice. I do know how this feels, though, and how tempting it can be to fall into this jaded trap.)

I'm just in exploratory mode, or so I've heard it said
But I'd rather like three guys than feel like I'd rather be dead.
So it feels a little stupid.
So I think it's kind of weird.
But what do you do when you barely made it
When it took so much just to breathe?
There was a time when I was faithful
When I said that I would stay.
Well I stayed there for years after he left
Almost broke me before today.
So if I can see myself happy with three different guys
Means I won't be broken by one.
Means it's not the fatal risk of love
No more than a casual crush.
If I can as easily give up one as another
If I could let one go without a struggle
Okay, so it's a little unfaithful.
But at least it won't kill me this time.
So let me write off ever after
I'm gonna swear off love
If none of you can trust me
Then I don't have to trust.
If all of you are there for me
But it goes no further than lust
Then I don't have to bare myself
Then I don't have to love.
So I'll like everybody
And therefore like no one.
My heart will scrape, but never break again
If I can stop myself from love.

(This is what happens when you fall in love with someone who's fictional.)

I didn't mean to hurt you
Didn't mean to cause you grief.
But I couldn't bear to turn away
With your beautiful eyes watching me leave.
It all happened so suddenly, you see
That uneventful night
And suddenly I'm out there saving the world
While you're left wondering where I went.
I toiled through rings of fire
And mountains full of doom
But none of that tore me apart more
Than the distance between me and you.
I bore the lash and bite of blade
And watched my closest friend slowly die.
But none of it hurt as bad as knowing
There was no one to hear you cry.
I'm here, I'm gone, your Sam's not dead
Just wait for me. Don't let go.
The memory of bright ribbons and blinding eyes
Keeps me hanging on past hope.
And while he's talking of strawberries
All I can think of is the taste of your lips.
I've tasted death and doom and hell itself
For the prayer that I might earn your kiss.
He talks of light and moss and life
I wasn't meant to live life in two.
So let this heart break if it can break in your arms
I want to spend the freedom I've won with you.

Let this break against hell itself
I want to spend all my days with you.

(TS's "Christmases When You Were Mine." Stole that line from her song. The rest of this, though, is mine. And it's not like TS has a patent on reminiscing during the holiday season anyways.)

Hey there honey, how've you been
Stayed up thinking 'bout you last night.
I found your Christmas card from last year
And the whole year played back before my eyes.

How we'd talk till 2 in the morning
You could make me cry like no one else.
The sparks when we'd only just look at each other.
You made my clean heart a knotted-up mess.

And I could quote back to you
Everything you'd ever say.
On your chest is a dragon tattoo
Your eyes are that deep blue-gray.
It's even worse than Valentine's Day
Coz that day don't make me cry.
Can't stop thinking about you
Coz last Christmas you were still mine.

I bet you're still wearing that chocolatey cologne
And your sister's getting hit on by every guy in town.
I bet you're still flaunting your honesty
Coz that got you so far before.
And you're hanging up mistletoe with another girl now
Did you knock the ladder over so you could catch her as she fell
And kiss her for the first time there
Underneath the mistletoe?

And I could quote back to you
Everything you'd ever say.
On your chest is a dragon tattoo
Your eyes are that deep blue-gray.
I still laugh and cry without you
Even though it's not the same
I can't seem to feel like I did last year
Coz last Christmas you were still mine.