(My Muse: Are you all right? Sincerely yours, Chelsea.)

Dear angels at the subway station
Please take my hand tonight.
The train's too fast and way too loud
And I'm scared of all the lights.

My mommy gets upset at me
Distracted, sucking at my fingers.
But sometimes it's the only thing that can help
Soothing, calming down my nervous shivers.

Angels, the subway's so so loud.
Like a monster that wants to eat me.
I want to run, to scream, to flee--
But till we reach our stop...I'm stuck here.

Dear angels of the subway
I'm sorry for being weak.
Just...ever since that accident
I've been afraid to sleep.

For when I sleep I die
Each night within my dreams.
Please just don't let my train crash
Like you crashed my daddy's last week.

Mommy says you took him to be with you
Up there in all the skies.
But I'm afraid to even live now.
I'm way too scared to fly.

Angels, dearest angels
Please don't crash my train tonight.

(For all my good friends.
Thank you. So much.)

How do you love me? With my mussed-up hair
And my super small frame
And my too infrequent death glare.

How do you love me? When I'm far too nice
Even when I ought to be mean
But it's almost impossible to even try.

I say "I'm sorry" too much, and I'm sorry for that
But I'd rather say it when I don't need to
Than not say it when I should have.

How do you love me? With my super competitive streak
And choices of cuteness over comfort
And ridiculously high-heeled feet.

I get far too obsessed over the littlest things
Throw my all into everything
I don't even know what "halfway" means.

How do you love me? With my stupid innocence
And my too-open friendly nature
Leaves me blind to the touch.

Not enough of a jerk---been told this often before.
Sometimes too much like a slut.
Sometimes too good of a girl.

Too much of a flirt, or then not friendly enough
Too foolishly open and affectionate
Too easy to love.

Far too naive; trust way too much for ease of heart
Give even creepers a second chance
How stupid is that?

How do you love me? Though I was made this way
People are people, loving or not
And I'm so glad that you stay with me.

For I love you dearly. And I want you with me till the end.
Thank you for loving me.

Thank you for being my friend.

(It's. Cold. Outside. Yup. Another cold poem.)

The butterfly brush of her fingertips
Gently stroking down my skin.
Her touch so soft, so breathtakingly slow
So very very very cold.
I reach for her; she shies away
Crosses her arm shivering
She wants it, wants me; she's too scared.
Fails to pretend that she don't care.
With her maddening heels and her little red dress
Her eyes show she's a trembling mess inside.
She looks like she's got it all together
But I look at her and see her strings all coming untied.
She shudders when I lay my hand down.
I can barely keep cool when she's around.
I want her in my arms tonight--
I want her there for the rest of my life.
The coldness of her tiny fingers
Only emphasizing the warmth in her overflowing heart.
The sheer joy that lights up her face with that blinding smile
Explodes and overtakes the entire room when she walks in.
The heat of her soft light skin
The warmth of her breath on my neck.
The shocking love of a heart spilling itself out for any who need it
Regardless of what they deserve.
To cool her shivers with my touch
To make her say that's not enough.
Reaching out to take it slow
I don't wanna push her too hard.
Forever is forever to warm up
Nothing in love so volatile as touch.
She shivers again---is it cold or me?
Keep wondering. But she is worth the waiting.

So I gentle her little cold hands in mine.
And for now, it's enough tonight.

(Innnteresting.)

She's a beautiful girl---and she don't even know it.
Her body swaying out on the floor.
She's a lonely girl. I can see straight through her.
Coz her boyfriend's gone and he won't know.

And all the lights go out in this club
She's still out there dancing alone
I know it's wrong to want what ain't mine
She's too gorgeous for her own good....

But he's gone
And she's free game
He's out of town for a night
And she's anyone's to play.

And I'm a player for going for her
She's taken; I know it.
I don't care.
I'm a bad boy...but I see her dancing
I want her now, and I won't share.

"You're a bad boy," she says to me.
"And you'll only break my heart.
I have a man--" but I reply
What he don't know won't hurt him now.

Rejecting me--but I know it's a ploy
And I like a challenge now and then.
Her smile is maddening
And I'll bet she could have her share of men.

But he's gone
And she's free game
He's out of town for a night
And there'll be hell to pay.

And I'm a player for going for her
She's taken; I know it.
I don't care.
I'm a bad boy...but I see her dancing
I want her now, and I don't intend to share.

My hands near her hair
My name on her heart
I'm beginning to care.
What an idiot you are.
Bad to the bone
And she pierced me through.
Her man's out of town
And I will break through.

She don't trust me
Coz I'm going for a girl who's taken.
I know it
But I'm starting to care...
I'm a bad boy
Coz I'm gonna win her
She won't dance alone
Anymore; I swear.

Happy Valentine's Day, darling?
Ha. Ha. Funny.
I wonder if VD will ever ever be happy....

Crunching out my cigarette
The smoke alarm is going off.
Well you should feel very loved--
No one else can burn of love.

Cupid used a crossbow and flame
I snorted and said nice try.
But once exposed, doubly late.
You, my deadly valentine.

I fell for you and fell so hard
I think that I lost my heart.

Filleted to the bone by this motion
But at least tonight you're mine.
Going under in slow motion
You're my deadly valentine.

Feathered by the moonlight
And bleeding by the touch of your eyes.
Dying in your arms tonight
My deadly valentine.

I swore to you I loved you
And you laughed and said nice try.
Drifting away like an April blossom
On a wind of summer lies.

Then you touched me and I was hopelessly hooked
By the barbs in your beauty and skin.
Bound to an angel who's leading to death
And I can't bring myself to care.

I fell for you and fell so hard
I can't even find my heart.

Filleted to the bone by this motion
But at least tonight you're mine.
Going under in slow motion
You're my deadly valentine.

Feathered by the moonlight
And drowning in your eyes.
Bleeding in your arms tonight
My deadly valentine.

They don't understand this danger.
But they've never been in love.
Cupid made a mistake
When he put your name on my card.

They don't understand this addiction.
But then again, they haven't looked in your eyes.
You are in my heart forever.

My deadly valentine.

Delicious taste of rich crimson and deep brown
Flowing like rain against my tongue.
You'd kill a thousand souls for me
But would you give your heart to me?

In the sorrow of the moonlight and lovers lost
Tears falling so silent like a stolen first kiss.
Left so empty in the dark
Take a piece out of my fading heart.

Eros kindling in quiet flame
Born under the twilight again.
Devouring passion leaves a crumbling shell
Tell him you don't belong in hell.

Turn once, then twice, and see him now
His love has wrought clear death in you.
A given soul taken and tossed again
And just like that
They are reborn.

As soon as death leaves
You are reborn.

(Okay. So I'm a little obsessed.)

The chase of adventure
A life of ease.
Silky wealth and treacherous snare.
To live a life
For only myself.
Not even caring what else was there.

But the beauty of daylight
And sheer living gold
More priceless than a kingdom of crowns.
Soft love yielding to break
Trust inspiring strength
The climb is worth falling down.

The treasure of the world
In a tomb of stone.
And to think I didn't care.
In the still of night
Your glowing beauty shines bright.
Rapunzel.
Let down your hair.

Silence before
The end of it all.
Deep breath before the dive.
The ice breaks sharp
The shards of her heart
Melt into the skin like ice.

At the end of this climb
Hell and heaven collide
And I know I face my death.
Bleeding here to bring life.
Risk it all; set her free.
Though I die, she is worth the cost.

The treasure of the world
In a tomb of stone.
And to think I didn't care.
In the still of night
Your glowing beauty shines bright.
Rapunzel.
Let down your hair.

Now at last I can hear
For the love of one tear
My darling. Now I care.
And I fear it's too late
But you give me new strength.

Rapunzel.
Let down your hair.

(My first semi-decent praise & worship song! :p  And---like the best praise & worship songs---it's also a love song. For that's what the most important relationships are all about, right? Only love.) 

You used to call my name
Everytime I'd fall.
Used to run to me
When I wandered too far.
Used to hold me tight
Whenever I'd cry
And promise me
You'd make it all right.

I've been calling for hours with no shadow to show
Screaming out but only echoes return.
And I cry alone with no one to care
Are you there
Are you there?

Did I do this wrong?
Did I fall one too many times?
Did you walk out on me
Like everyone else in my life?

Give me a second chance
And make me whole again.
I can't do this on my own
My God
I need you in my life
Darkest hours of my night
And I can't feel you here
Come now
Save me somehow.

You used to walk with me in the summer of my life
Now I reach out and you are nowhere by my side.
I used to kow that you would always stay with me.
But I'm looking so hard and I cannot see.

Did I do this wrong?
Did I fall one too many times?
Did you walk out on me
Like everyone else in my life?

Give me a second chance
And make me whole again.
I can't do this on my own
My God
I need you in my life
Darkest hours of my night
And I can't feel you here
Come now
Save me somehow.

I love you
I want you
And I need to see
That you--
You love me
Your hand's held out for me.

Give me a second chance
And make me whole again.
I can't do this on my own
My God
I need you in my life
Darkest hours of my night
And I can't feel you here
Come now
Save me somehow.

Come now.
Save me somehow.

Running and crying
Looking over my shoulder
In the hopes you'd be behind.
Building up walls
Vulnerability to break
Praying that you'd somehow try.

Cool grass like a barrier
Stone tower encase my heart.
Keeping out you and the world.
But the touch of your hand
Fingers entangling close
And I forget all I've ever known.

Tangled up in the starlight and magic
And the taste of your smell in my heart.
Your eyes brighter than moon-glow
You've set me free to be free.
The light breaks the dark.

Though the shadows entrap me
Demons hardest to fight
When they bear the face of those you love.
Courage emboldened now
By the breaking of lies
Finally falling free from the stifling above.

Tangled up in the starlight and magic
And the taste of your smell in my heart.
Your eyes brighter than moon-glow
You've set me free to be free.
The light breaks the dark.

Awakening
Set me free
Arousing for the first time.
Slept for all my life.
But fire sparks tonight
When your eyes latch into mine.

Tangled up in the starlight and magic
And the taste of your smell in my heart.
Your eyes brighter than beauty
You set me free to be free.
The light breaks the dark.

Your eyes like beacons to me
And now I'm finally free.

Your light breaks through my heart.

You think I'm there
And they think you're wrong
But you're only worth it if you learn.
I'm not afraid to dive
So every rose has thorns.
You never know unless you're turned.

When the shadows breathe
And all the flowers fang
Will it too near pierce your soul?
So if the dark day dawns
Well it's too far away
I won't survive this on my own.

I'm looking for love in all the wrong places
Coz love it takes me high.
I'm looking for hope in all the night places
It's nowhere else to find
And nobody knows--no nobody cares where you're headed
Love I'll take you down.
Looking for love in all the wrong places
Love you're going down.

Build a life of cards
And paste them strong with blood
Until the wolfish wind breaks them down.
So the moon's pull is lost.
The tide will pick me up
And lay me in your warm arms.

So build a ring of hope
And let the roses fall
Flooding into our bed.
That was the last of all
Throw up my pierced hands.
Are you only in my head?

I'm looking for love in all the wrong places
Coz love it takes me high.
I'm looking for hope in all the night places
It's nowhere else to find
And nobody knows--no nobody cares where you're headed
Love I'll take you down.
Looking for love in all the wrong places
Love you're going down.

Nobody cares
No, nobody knows where you're headed.
Love, I'll take you down.
Looking for love in all the wrong places.
Love, you're going down.