(Yes, I know Glee did the mash-up of Singing in the Rain/ Umbrella; but hey, imitation is the sincerest form of flattery, right? I absolutely adore the mash-up and the positively sappy cheesiness of the "you can stand under my umbrella" line. There's just something about rain that screams romance. So...this is my spin on the idea of song and rain and umbrellas. :p )

Staying up late to survive the day
Denial and cynicism my only recourse.
Coz underneath the bravado
I had no other defense.

But you and your beauty provoked a change
Trying to break me free from this pain.
I didn't know till I heard your voice
And saw you singing in the rain.

If you'd just see what I say
We'd prove the existence of soulmates
In stormy or cloudy weather
We'd make it through if we had each other.

We would be so happy together
Never need to find another.
When you go singing in the rain
You can stand under my umbrella.

The what-ifs haunt more than the regrets
If you walk on now you'll always wonder.
Accept the sunshine with the rain
And let me bring the thunder.

I know you're scared, but I'm scared too
We'll make it through together
Teach me how to dance in the rain
You can stand under my umbrella.

Take me out in the sunshine and falling rain
As it embraces your laughing face
Your glistening skin, arms flung out taking it in
And I know the meaning of grace.

Your upturned mouth just asking for a kiss
And though I never used to believe, now I do.
A gift I can never earn nor deserve
My grace is all in you.

I never believed in fairytales
But you wrote me one today.
You are my first, my only real dream.
Please darling.
I want you to stay.

We're perfect together
Don't need any other.
Let me hear you say my name.
In the storms of life's weather
Stand under my umbrella
When you're singing in the rain.

There's something I never knew till I met you
And I didn't know I was missing it
Till it claimed my heart.
Now every night in bed I wish for you
Find myself believing
In every shooting star.

How I cannot say
But something clicked
And I know it today

It's how you love to tease me
Send the fire to my face
Make the blood go plunging through my veins.
It's how with a simple touch suddenly
You broke the dam
Waters raging free.
And I can't find the right words to say
I knew it today.

It's how you love to drive me wild
And then catch and tickle me till I'm laughing
Too hard to be mad anymore.
And you claim to swear off romance
But that didn't stop you from tossing pebbles
Against my bedroom door.

It's in the moments when you hurt me
And I cry myself to sleep for days
Coz it's like you broke my dreams.
And it's such a little thing to be mad over
But I only realize how much I care when I realize
How vulnerable you make me.

How I cannot say
But something clicked
And I know it today

It's how you love to tease me
Send the fire to my face
Make the blood go plunging through my veins.
It's how with a simple touch suddenly
You broke the dam
Waters raging free.
And I can't find the right words to say
I knew it today.

There's something I never knew till I met you
How love and passion and two hot-blooded kids
Can drive each other crazy.
Coz if you squeezed me against your heart
So hard I couldn't breathe
It still wouldn't be close enough for me.

It's how you obsess me
When you touch me
You're the only thing I see.
It's how I want you tonight
I don't wanna face this life without you.
I need you by my side

Every night for the rest of my life

And I knew it today.
I need you to be mine.

(So...this has been several months in the making. Had the chorus in March & only got the rest now. So... enjoy. :p )

I bet you're hard to get over
I bet you're easy to lose.
I bet it drives men crazy
Knowing you have a million others to choose.

I don't know how to endure you
I don't know how to move on.
But I know I wouldn't know what to do
If you were gone.

I think we should try
I think I need you in my life.
I love you, and it's like I need you to breathe.
I don't know if I wanna be with you forever
But I know I wanna find out.
It's for you that my heart beats.

I bet you're hard to win
Every man is trying for you.
They've used every trick in the books
There's nothing now that's left for you.

I don't know how to lose you
I don't know how to show...
But I know I wouldn't know what to do
If you said no.

If I let you go.

I think we should try
I think I need you in my life.
I love you, and it's like I need you to breathe.
I don't know if I wanna be with you forever
But I know I wanna find out.
It's for you that my heart beats.

Is there any way to change your mind?
No one can read you like me.
I could make you so happy
No one knows you as well as me.

I think we should try
I think I need you in my life.
I love you, and it's like I need you to breathe.
I don't know if I wanna be with you forever
But I know I wanna find out.
It's for you that my heart beats.

You are my everything
You're everything to me.

Anything to drown the pain
Well life is pain. It's a package deal.
Never looking for a betrayal-free path
Coz anything else would be too surreal.

Cynicism to hide the scars
But no one really cares who you are.
They throw themselves on you and then throw you away
No one wants to follow your star.

I need you to believe in
I need you enough to fight.
I don't know how this will end
But I need you enough to try.
For you to reach out with your hand and touch my face
And look into my eyes
With all the innocence that comes with complete trust.
I need you in my life.

Sleepless nights. Dreary days.
Work yourself down till you work yourself raw
Coz nothing but work is left for you
You have no one who takes up time in your heart.

Yearning desperately for something more
Someone you can rely upon.
Who will break you out and break you free
Of the mask that stuck when you tried it on.

I need you to believe in
I need you enough to fight.
I don't know how this will play out
But I need you enough to try.
For you to reach out with your hand and touch my face
And look into my eyes
With all the innocence that comes with complete trust.
I need you in my life.

The love with which you look at me
The way you get under my skin.
The way your tiny body in my arms
Makes me feel for the first time like a man.

And your head in my hands, your cheek against mine
Your breast heaving with every tear you cry.
I can feel it going straight to my bones.
I wanna fiercely defend all the innocence still left in your eyes...

I need you to believe in
I need you enough to fight.
I don't know how this will end
But I really need you tonight.
For you to reach out with your hand and touch my face
And look into my eyes
With all the trust that comes with complete love.

I need you in my life.

(Hung out with a friend last week, and when he was talking about his past girlfriend, he said: "I'd rather have tried and realized we had nothing than not try and miss out on the chance that we could have been something more. I'd rather lose what I never had than not try at all." That struck me vividly. For I think it's true. Perhaps it is better to try, to fight for something passionately if you want it (or even only think you do), to throw yourself into the water headfirst rather than stay dallying on the edge, too scared or indecisive to ever do anything about it. Sometimes the heartbreak--as difficult as that can be--can be more endurable than the what-ifs that will haunt you for the rest of your life. It might not be the wisest way to live life...but it may be the most courageous and best thing to do. But what if you can't bring yourself to live that way? What if you're in love and the person you love can't bring their own self to live that way?....Well, in any case, my friend's words inspired this writing, basically my way of throwing out all my different thoughts and overanalytical musings in a hundred different potential outcomes regarding this basic dilemma and thinking through this issue by going through it in song. Enjoy. ^_^ )

She is more beautiful than I could ever hope for
And more vulnerable than me.
She is stronger than the ocean's tide
Crashing out to sea.

She lives for compliments and pretty words
Yet she's more confident than kings.
She never ceases to fly
Though love has clipped her wings.

Too terrified to give love a second chance
But she's made up of hope and romance.
She's so out of my league
But she's the only one for me.

Put a bind upon the wind
Command the ocean's waves.
She refuses to be tied down
If she tried, she still couldn't stay.
You're slipping away
Though you were never mine.
I'm losing what
I never had.

Better to try and fail
Than never to try at all.
Better to lose what you never had
Than be too scared to fall.

She melts at sentimentality
At a tender slow touch.
But her will once steeled cannot be coaxed undone
She's far too stubborn for that.

Too terrified to give love a second chance
But she's made up of hope and romance.
She's so out of my league
But she's the only one for me.

Put a bind upon the wind
Command the ocean's waves.
She refuses to be tied down
If she tried, she couldn't stay.
You're slipping away
Though you were never mine.
I'm losing what
I never had.

It breaks me apart
Oh it's killing me
But her mind is made up
And she won't even try
And the tears on her sleeve
Hurt more than anything
Coz they tell me what I know is true:
Though she will not be moved
She is
In love with me too.

Trying to bind the moon's rays down
She's slipping through my hands.
How can it break so much
To lose what you never had?
Because when I'm with her I taste
The intoxication that could be.
But it's no use.
I'm losing her.
She'll never be with me.

I feel the poundings
And the pulsing change
It's been so long since I've felt this way.
And I'd like to think this time it could be new
And though everything's beautiful when I'm with him
It's not overwhelming enough to drown out you.
Though I'm falling for him
I still could be falling for you.

Scarred from a broken romance
Neither of us ever had a chance.
Is it better not to try
Than to lose what you never had?

But my heart came alive again
After years of lying dead.
Like a fairytale he awakened too
And I was standing there.

Bound for so long by memories
Now freed only to be captured again.
Chain the bird who cannot sing
But what if she tries to stretch her wings?

I feel the poundings
And the pulsing change
It's been so long since I've felt this way.
And I'd like to think this time it could be new
And though everything's beautiful when I'm with him
It's not overwhelming enough to drown you.
Though I'm falling for him
I still could be falling for you.

He is different, he is kind
Unlike everything I've ever tried.
Like opposites attract, and I'm there too
Loving enough to make wisdom go blind.

And I'm witty and brilliant and passionate too
Throw myself into everything I do
If he could coax all this ardor to him
He'd be a lucky man.

Bound for so long by memories
Now freed only to be captured again.
Chain the bird who cannot sing
But someday she may want to stretch her wings.

I feel the poundings
And the pulsing change
It's been so long since I've felt this way.
And I'd like to think this time it could be new
And though everything's beautiful when I'm with him
It's not overwhelming enough to drown you.
Though I'm falling for him
I still could be falling for you.

But I love the world at large
And see beauty in every dying heart
And hope for the best in my little fantasy land
And am led astray by any begging star.

And you are charming and rather hot
And breathtakingly everything that he is not.
If I am drawn to you as well
Does that mean I'm not in love?

He deserves better than
Just another girl who'll break his heart.
He deserves better than
Me to fall in love with him.
He deserves a girl
Whom he can rely on to never change
Who will always stay with him--
He deserves better than me.

Bound for so long by memories
Now freed only to be captured again.
Chain the bird who cannot sing
But someday she may try to stretch her wings...

I go on fire all over
When he touches me
But you could make me burn just as easily.
I would sell my soul
If it means I could be true
I don't know what it takes to keep me happy.

He makes me feel like it's all right
But he doesn't blind my searching eyes.
Though I'm falling for him
I still could be
Falling for you.

So, finally got an original song on YouTube! Muchness of thanks to my good friend Ryan for letting me use his keyboard, recording with his camera, and basically forcing me to get outside of my comfort zone and start getting my stuff out there. This is a song I wrote back in February. Listen and enjoy guys!! Leave (nice :p ) comments if you please.   'Twould be quite appreciated.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f0l8nalyDZE

Baby I have fallen for you
And I don't know why
Coz you're playing the fool.

Sit by my phone and cry
We used to kiss all night
Now it's all tears and fights.

Even though I know I should even this score
I don't wanna fight you anymore.

It's the darkest of nights
And I don't know what'll see me through.
I can't seem to find my way
My heart wants to return to you.

Never felt this way before
It's tearing me up inside.
And I know I just can't take no more.

But the passion that wildly fills me
When all's right with us and the world
Like a lake and I'm diving in heedlessly

(And I'm totally fine with that.)

Even though I know I should even this score
I miss you too much to fight anymore.

It's the darkest of nights
And I don't know what'll see me through.
Blinded to the reaching light
I want to go home to you.

I miss the fighting and the screaming
And the kissing and the holding
Like I was the only thing between you and destruction
And you refused to let me go.
I miss the late night talks
And the heart-rending pain
And the way you'd hold me afterwards
Would make up for it all again.

It's the darkest of nights
I don't know how it'll see me through.
Wandering; I can't find my way
My heart's home is found in you.

It's the darkest of nights
And though you brought this upon you
I still wanna find my way home.
I wanna go home to you.

All I want is you.

I've known happiness before
But I've never known a thing like this
Your gentle touch against my face
Is worth every other girl's kiss.

To hold you tightly as you curl up in my arms
Feeling like I can keep you safe from the world
To feel every tremor through your shallow breaths
It's all I want in the world.
To curl over you and protect you with my body and blood
It's all I can ever ask for.
And it's all I'll ever see
For you can't see what there is in me
And you'll never let us be.

Whimpering, weeping, you reach out for me
And I'm all too ready to hold you as you cry.
But it's like I'm no more than your gay best friend
Though you're the only one I want tonight.

Your breaking heart bleeding but it wasn't from me
If I had it my way, I'd be healing it tonight.
But all I can do to show that I truly love you
Try to help your light burn bright.

To hold you as though you're a part of my flesh
To hold you closer than I've ever known.
But you just need a warm embrace for comfort
And I need you like I need my soul.
You're under my chin, heedless of my weight.
The proximity of your beauty
Intoxicates me
But I'll never see how deep you go
For you'll never really see me.

Everything is perfect
Everything's so right.
How can you call this coincidence?
How can you not even try?

You're far too perfect
But that doesn't mean I won't fight.
You're the best thing
I'll never call mine.

And I hold you as you're weeping heedlessly
Just trying to shut out your world.
The demons are trying to guilt-trip your open heart
Cynicism tries to drown out your trusting soul.
Your blindness is your beauty.
And though you may not be mine
This still holds true:
Your selfless love makes me love you all the more.
I will always
And forever
Love you.

Had my heart broken a few times before
Love came and went in my life.
I've fallen, and I've the scars to prove it
Never seemed to do it right.

It sucked to be me and I knew it
But you set out to prove me wrong.
How you got in I'll never understand
Like how I fell in love.

There's just something about you, girl
I don't understand when I look in your eyes
Though I've known you for years and years
Every time we touch, it's like it's the first time.

The meaning of happiness
Is being against your skin
And feeling you breathe out
Every moment that I breathe in.
Lost in the depth of your embrace
Every day with you is new.
And as I look into your eyes, I know.
My happiness is you.

My life was resigned acceptance and mere survival
But you make me light up and live.
Drew me outside of my scars and my shell
Gave me more than you had to give.

I don't know why you love me in return
But I'll treat you like you deserve.
If you stay, I'll love you like I can't help doing now
I'm the luckiest guy in the world.

There's just something about you, girl
I don't understand when I look in your eyes
Though I've known you for years and years
Every time we touch, it's like it's the first time.

The meaning of happiness
Is being against your skin
And feeling you breathe out
Every moment that I breathe in.
Lost in the depth of your embrace
Every day with you is like new.
And as I look into your eyes, I know
My happiness is you.

Your slender body in my arms
Forbidden enough to feel right
You're so tiny, so trusting; you make me a man.
I'm not letting this go tonight.

The meaning of all my happiness
Is being under your skin
And the rise and swell of your breathing
As I take every moment in.
Everything is like intoxicating joy
And a passion so strong it's true.
When I hold you, I know I can take on the world.
My happiness is you.