Caught inbetween the euthoria
Of the greying twilight hell.
Fading fast as you fall away
I guess it's just as well.

A shade caught in the shadow
So invisible, seen by none.
But a shade caught out at noonday
Is smitten by the sun.

The frying pan or the fire
And sometimes, that's all you've got.
Take aim and hold your ground, dear;
Or take another shot.

I'll go down in a blaze of glory
Rather than let you see you've won.
If a cord of three is stronger
What when you've taken my soul and run?

I was the braver to be weaker
But you, you've bottled it and moved on.
And I'm bleeding here in agony
You never told me your strength was gone.

Fading faster into twilight
Caught eternally in two worlds.
There's inordinate brokenness in you yet
But so pure of a heart for this girl

To hobnob with the sinners
Or sip champagne with the saints.
There's too much fire in you for that
Rebelling against these tight chains.

Too innocent for the gutter
Too fallen for heaven's gates.
The twilight closes around you
Before you even have the choice.

So lose your fiery purity
Or enjoy your date in hell.
Your virgin sensuality
Won't get you far there. 

Trapped in two worlds forever
Belonging neither to none. 
You're always wandering out there
Unless you lose yourself, you'll always be lost.

But my path I've chosen uninfluenced, alone;
Jesus would understand.
Well he can't hear you, little one;
Earn your own way at my hand.

Paddling about in the hanging mist
Pushing off away from shore.
The air is heavy and harder to breathe;
It's all I have anymore.

If he seeks me, he will find me
I'm the one drifting alone at sea.
With the fire too devilish for his choir of saints
And too much innocence for hell in me.

An irreconcilable dichotomy
But I'm not waiting around anymore.
If he seeks me he will find me.
Till then, I'm sailing out on my own.

She's the wildest thing of purity
You'll ever see.
Baptized in the Spirit 
And in the fire of hell's dreams

She'll pull you in and make you dance
Right there with her in the rain.
And she'll leave you dreaming
As she runs away again.

A dash of devil in those wide eyes
Preacher's granddaughter and a rebel child.
Black sheep of the family
The only one with scars.
She's so beautiful and broken, always wanting more;
And she loves like she's never fallen before. 

Her family all blames her 
Coz she fell so far.
But they just watched and gossiped
While she reached and touched the stars.

She's an everything-goes girl
All-in or all-out.
All you want is to keep her still
But she don't go for that.

A dash of devil in those wide eyes
Preacher's granddaughter and a rebel child.
Black sheep of the family
The only one with scars.
She's so beautiful and broken, always wanting more;
And she loves like she's never fallen before.

So scarred and so insecure
The break in those dark green eyes
The open honest sorrow
Amid the beauty and truth and fight.

Her family sings in the choir
Doesn't drink, or smoke, or lie.
Her halo's rusting on her nightstand
While she's dancing in the river tonight.

A dash of devil in the angel
But she's in the gutter while they're throwing stones
Down there with you, pulling you to your feet again
Giving your damned soul the hope of a home.

She's not afraid to get her hands dirty
And they, they'll never chip a nail.
The scars are open on her body
From when she trusted and lost and trusted again.

A dash of devil in those wide eyes
Preacher's granddaughter and a rebel child.
Black sheep of the family
The only one with scars.
She's so beautiful and broken, always wanting more;
She loves you just the way you are. 

Such a broken-wing lover
Tries to heal every flaw.
Her own life's falling to pieces
And she's covered in the scars.

And her own wings are broken
But she never stops trying to fly
She'll take you up upon her back
And make it there or die.

Falling apart and yet holding it together
Transparent where everyone hides their sins.
Vulnerable and beautifully open about it.
Loves and falls and loves again.

She's a hot, hot mess for perfection
And she thinks she's fallen so far.
The gossips try to tear her down even farther
But I wonder if she remembers when she last flew.

And her smile is a lantern in the starless sky;
Her broken eyes can't hide their past or pain.
But the beauty shines through, and makes you realize
She'll never judge coz she's been through the same.

Falling apart and yet holding it together
Transparent where everyone hides their sins.
Vulnerable and beautifully open about it.
Loves and falls and loves again.

A child of light in the darkness
Too fallen for the saints.
But a thing of reverence all the more for that
She's the only one of them who relates.

She's not afraid to stoop and reach out her hand;
So confident in the brokenness by which she stands.
My bitter heart she's changed
And I can see light and holiness again.

Falling apart and yet holding it together
Transparent where everyone hides their sins.
Vulnerable and beautifully open about it.
Loves and falls and loves again.

This little girl's brokenness shines forth in its beauty;
And draws me back to try again.
She's worth fighting and dying for;
And trying, once more, to be a man.

A scared little girl
With a locked-up heart.
I'd fallen before
And fell too far.
Swore off love forever
And was doing just fine
Then your beauty and kindness
Entered my life.
 
Not in love
But your hands are shaking
Not in love
But your heart is aching

Falling 
Deeper into confusion
Fighting your draw is like jumping
Defying gravity.
I'm broken
Here on the ground
I'm bleeding
But I flew so high before I fell. 

Too scared to trust
But I can't help trusting you.
Trying not to fall
He seemed trustworthy too.

But your eyes take
My breath away
And even as I run
I want to stay.

Not in love
But your hands are shaking
Not in love
But your heart is aching

Falling 
Deeper into confusion
Fighting your draw is like jumping
Defying gravity.
I'm broken
Here on the ground
I'm bleeding
But I flew so high before I fell. 

Catch me, hold me, keep me here
Keep me long enough to breathe.
If you're holding me and I feel you there
It'll ease away all these fears.

His shadow still haunts me, always will;
But it's nothing more than a ghost.
And you are life and love and warmth;
Your life I want the most.

Falling in love
And you're terrified
But against reason you trust
It's different this time.

Falling deeper into 
Your arms here
Fighting your pull is like
Defying gravity.

I'm broken but you're filling me up.
I'm jumping blind into your atmosphere.

And the risk's still there
But that is the beauty
I'm flying
At least if I fall again, I'll fall into the skies.

I trusted enough to fly.

I'm waiting for you to carry on.
Still singing but you've forgot the song.
I can't wait for the last petal to fall.
Sometimes a kiss doesn't work its magic at all.

I'm falling 
Out here forever
Will you remember me?
Your song is
Ashes and wine
Draining the midst of me.

And I miss you
And yet I know, if you held me forever
You'd be the millstone dragging me to heaven.
A child of fire belongs still at sea.
Your light was only the hellfire in me. 

My north star became hell's gate
Once my life, now my heart's wraith.
The worst of it all, if you'd just call my phone
I'd take your misery over this--being alone.

I'm falling 
Out here forever
Will you remember me?
Your song is
Ashes and wine
Draining the midst of me.

And I miss you
And yet I know, if you held me forever
You'd be the millstone dragging me to heaven.
A child of fire belongs still at sea.
Your light was only the hellfire in me. 

And I'm seeing
You were the glue that held me together
Molding me into your porcelain perfection.

Too holy for sinners, too fallen for saints.

I thought with you, I had found my place.

I'm falling 
Out here forever
Will you remember me?
Your song is
Ashes and wine
Draining the midst of me.

And I miss you
And yet I know, if you held me forever
You'd be the millstone dragging me to heaven.
A child of fire belongs still at sea.
Your light was only the hellfire in me. 

I'm where I belong again, drifting at sea.
Your light just reflected the hellfire in me.